Thursday, November 17, 2016

INVEST IN YOU...

This week has been ongoing emotions. I am most grateful for my husband and kids who have lifted me. I am grateful for my closest friends. The past two weeks have been one in which I knew I needed to keep busy and allow my heart to PONDER and just "feel."

I actually was so productive in that I made a decision to face some things I needed to do. I cleaned out areas in my home that needed to be done since we moved in. I was "dreading" doing it. I woke up one day and a thought came to me- IF NOT NOW... WHEN? I realized that I needed to JUST DO IT. I decluttered and freed my space and it felt so fabulous. I think it actually freed my mind. I spent a lot of time doing this PURGE in my home and designing from home (dual duty). I can only say it gave me much peace to face something I had been avoiding. 

I wanted to share something that has been on my mind a lot. I am a firm believer in INVESTING in yourself. I believe in surrounding yourself with those that are REAL and love you EVERY DAY... they are with you on the good and bad days and the relationship goes both ways. This is one of my favorite quotes:



I believe we should surround ourselves around those people who LIFT us. They INSPIRE us. They understand and want the best for us. So I love this thought-


I feel this is so true. This is something to think about. I feel that I have always strived to be the friend I want others to be to me. 

Anyway, I was most grateful to spend the day with my kids and go to Ty's grave with the all my kids that could come. It was
fun to write messages on paper and send them up to Heaven tied to balloons. We shared many memories and shared dinner at Red Robins (Ty's fave restaurant). I am most thankful for the memories we each have and hold sacred. We would laugh and cry and it was really helpful to do this together.


This is some of the thoughts expressed by the kids:

It's been two years since we said goodbye to Tyler. This morning I was thinking a lot about him and what he's doing in the spirit world. I realized that he's using this time to grow closer to his Heavenly Father and to help others do the same. Today when we went to visit his grave we sent notes up to heaven. We told him what we were going to do to be like him and strengthen ourselves and those around us. Death is hard and we still miss you so much Dad but God's plan is great. I love and miss you than you can say, think, or feel.

Oh I miss this guy a lot! It is strange how grief works. How at any moment something will remind me of him and the tears start to come. It can be the smallest thing. I tell Beckett and Capri stories about their Papa all the time. Sometimes they are the stories that make me laugh. Sometimes I tell them about how hard headed he was and drove me nuts! I think I get some of my stubbornness from him. But I mostly tell them about how much he would have loved them. His Grand babies were his world. It never gets easier missing someone. I can't believe it has been two years since you have been gone. I miss you Dad! Love you more then anything you can say, think or feel!

We spent the afternoon at the grave telling stories and writing messages to send up to heaven. Cooper even drew a picture for his Grandpa. It was a happy day. I cried from wishing his life didn't have to end so soon this morning, but this evening was full of laughter and smiles as we reminisced and told our favorite memories and stories to each other. We ended the day by going to dinner at the only place I remember going out to eat growing up, Red Robin... his favorite restaurant. It's amazing how much has changed in two years, yet I remember conversations vividly as if they occurred today. We miss you Dad! Thanks for watching over us down here.




I am so thankful for my kids that truly lift me. They are my world. I love them and they keep me going. I want to share "our" story because I know so many of you can relate even if your story is different. 

So tomorrow is the BIG day. I will open my office during the day for a SPECIAL SALE- all the details are in my previous posts.

10am-4:00 pm
DRAPER UTAH
78W 13775 South Suite 8
TERESA COLLINS OFFICE

(right off IKEA EXIT- Bangerter HWY)
All proceeds are donating in Tyler's name to Huntsman Cancer Institute. 

*TC wrapping paper ($1), all my books, albums, papers, etc.
I am opening my office for a few hours. I hope you will come and visit us. 










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Tuesday, November 15, 2016

TWO YEARS AGO TODAY



This morning I woke up to my cute McKay calling me. She asked how I was doing and then we talked about our family day. We are meeting to go to the grave and then dinner as a family. I only wish all of our kids were here today. 

Right after we hung up, there was a knock on my bedroom door. It was baby Ty. He came in before he went to school. Ty walked over to my side of the bed.  I said, "hey bud, what's up?" and he replied I just wanted to do this and gave me the BIGGEST strong hug.  So you can see the tender feelings are here and they don't go away.

It's been TWO years. I decided to share the video that was put together in Tyler's honor for his funeral. I watched it again this morning with Brian by my side. I proudly showed him the video and mentioned the kids and things about Tyler. 

Grief is ongoing... it is not something that simply just goes away. The truth is LOVE is love and you don't stop loving someone because they died. TODAY we are going to unite as a family to celebrate Tyler. I am going to go buy flowers for the grave and am just so thankful for my belief that Ty is our angel.

It's hard because of days like today. I would like to just stay in bed. I want to just allow myself to do nothing but "feel" all that comes. I can't even describe what I mean. I hope that makes sense. However, I am going to my office and prepare for the office sale this Friday. I know Tyler would be happy that I am doing this. I know he is helping me STILL as my business and family go on. So if you want to come on Friday... all the details are in my previous post.

Now go hug and share your love to the people who you love the most!!!




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Saturday, November 12, 2016

DEATH is not the END....


This was 2 years ago today. This was right before Ty passed away and my boys were so strong. I was at the hospital every day at this point and I was deeply worried how the boys were doing. How do you prepare your children for the death of a parent? They have been so brave and kept me going. 

I was talking to my best friend today. I was dreading Christmas again this year. I was feeling a little panic. For three years we did not have a Christmas tree because of Tyler being sick. I had lost my desire to celebrate. I think with his cancer battle and his death before Thanksgiving, I had just "went through" the holidays. Celebrating was so very hard.  I can honestly say that it is because of my children that I got out of bed in the morning. It is because of them that I picked myself up and HAD to go on. I was totally unprepared on how to be alone after 19 years. Nothing can prepare you for the loss of your husband and your children's father. 

I can honestly say that the bad times and the sad times were so HARD. I cried nonstop. I begged for a miracle. It was hard to get through each day trying to smile and find joy watching someone I loved so much in pain. I never was angry or bitter. I just felt SAD. I knew I could not go "around" the trial and suffering. I had to FACE it head on and go right "THROUGH" it. There was no detour or way around it.

I know that Heavenly Father was there every moment of the way in this journey for our family and me personally. It was personal and profound. I felt moments of sheer "warmth." It was like a blanket was wrapped around me. I was being watched over and loved in my journey. I know without a doubt that God is real. Tyler was my biggest fan and he LOVED his family MORE than anything. He was the biggest hunter, fisherman, outdoorsman. He loved guns and was a huge Ted Nugent fan. He made me laugh because he was so STUBBORN in his views. I want you to know I am a better ME because of him. I am feisty and I learned to be ME and a better ME by being married to him. We challenged each other. I learned so much in my business from him. He never worked with me, but he was so good with money. He was very smart and was such a hard worker. Tyler taught me to never have debt. He would say "live under your means." He was wise and I was blessed to learn from him. I taught him how to be more "sensitive" with emotional issues. Go figure- me emotional?

I know in so many small and "profound" ways he lets me know he's still here. Tyler is still watching over us and is proud of us for the things that we continue to do to live life without him here.  I look at our two boys and I'm literally crying as I think about the blessing that I was given to raise these amazing boys.  We wanted more children together but was advised with my stroke, while pregnant with Tyler to be done having children. I knew it was the RIGHT decision. He sure loved his children. He called the girls "my girls." I loved this so very much.  I am so thankful that Tyler and I were blessed to have Ty and Zach and our crazy blended family. 

We had the hardest time deciding when deciding to name our youngest son. We were at the hospital and it was time to go home. They wanted us to name the baby boy before we left. Tyler literally had went out to get the truck to go home. They had asked me to put a name on the birth certificate and I was fighting the feelings. I don't know why but I felt so impressed to name our youngest son Tyler. I now know that baby Ty was named after his father so that he could carry on his name. 

Tyler came back into the hospital room and I had written in Tyler Lee Collins. He was reluctant at first about naming him after him. He had such a special bond with baby Ty. I often have thought it was meant to be. Tyler and Ty were buddies. Baby Ty (yes, he's 17 years old) was quite the challenge with a strong personality and Ty could handle him in ways I have never been able to.  I'm so grateful I listened to that prompting to name him after his father. It makes me very grateful that he is baby Ty forever. I'm so grateful that I have these boys and my girls. 

Zach is serving a mission and doing so well there. His weekly messages are beyond profound. He just wants to love and serve others. He's lost a lot of weight too. Tyler is doing applications for college.  I think he wants to go to University of Utah. I know crazy right? All of our children have went to BYU but he is following his own journey. This makes me happy. 

I believe that we can go through and do all things especially hard things through our faith in Jesus Christ. I will never doubt the tender feelings and witness that I received when Tyler was close to death. Death is not the end. 

Okay, I want to share something really cool. Pinner's Conference was amazing so I have decided to do a OFFICE SALE. 

Yes, my office. I am not doing it at my warehouse. I am opening it this FRIDAY:  NOVEMBER 18th from 10am-4pm. Come and SHOP and talk to me and my team.




I am selling my beautiful gold wrapping paper for $1.00 a roll. Yes, and I am setting up tables to sell some of my products RIGHT at my office. I want to give back so EVERYONE that comes gets a gift from me. I am donating all sales that day to honor Tyler to charity. I am donating it to the HUNTSMAN CANCER INSTITUTE in Tyler's memory. I have albums, gift wrap, my books, papers, punches, so much more. The prices are incredible too. I am giving you free reign in my office to shop and to do something for me and my family in Tyler's memory. I am so thankful to be able to do this.  

My office is right off 1-15 (IKEA EXIT- Bangerter HWY). I will even have treats and diet coke. It would be well worth your drive.  I would love for you to come and meet me and my team.

Friday  November 18th 2016
10am- 4:00 pm 
Teresa Collins office (not my warehouse!)
78 W 13775 South Suite 8
Draper UT 84020

Many of you will ask if we ship product. YES! 

My website only shows some of the products I have and it needs to be updated. If you are want to purchase anything elsha@teresacollinsstudio.com can get you anything you want or need. 


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Wednesday, November 2, 2016

YOU SHOULD BE HERE... dedicated to Tyler Lewis Collins

I have days where I just don't even know how to explain the deep ache and pain that happens when life moments happen that TYLER should be here. I will apologize right now that I have cried many tears as I attempt to do this blog post.  

Tyler and I had a crazy BEAUTIFUL blended family, often it was just Ty and I and "The Boys." That is what we called Zach and Tyler.  "The Boys" were "our" boys. Oh how he loved his "buddies" as he called them. 

This song came on the radio and I could not stop crying.
                               YOU SHOULD BE HERE



I know that as we are days away from the two year anniversary since Tyler died, my heart is so tender. I just can't articulate the ache in my heart as I watch our boys grow up without a dad at such a young age. This has been so hard. I know my blog post on Saturday explained my feelings and I so appreciated reading your comments and understanding. So many of you KNOW exactly what I expressed. You have lived it.  

I saw this man, my husband fight like the bravest person.  I honestly thought he would survive. I did not accept the "terminal" diagnosis. Tyler was so in love with our family, our children and "THE BOYS." He spent so much time with Zach and Tyler especially.  
At one point, he told me "he couldn't die because
I could not be alone. I could not do it without him."
He said, "the boys" need me so I have to live at least five more years." 



This is my baby. He was "our" baby. We have always called him baby Ty. He is named after his father Tyler L Collins.
He is 17 years old and a Senior at Murray High School.
He is incredibly bright and so much his dad.
He did get my blue eyes and blond hair. ha!

I will never forget being 7 months pregnant and having a stroke while I was carrying this handsome boy. I remember Tyler physically carrying me into the ER that Friday night. He saved my life and our unborn son. He and I always babied our youngest because of this. The entire family felt baby Ty got away with everything. Maybe it was true. I never knew when I named him that day in the hospital that he would be carrying on his father's name at such a young age.

Baby Ty is wise beyond his years. He is so stubborn just like his dad and I see Tyler so much in our son.
He seriously can fix and figure out how to do things that most grown adults/men can not do. Right now, he is in the welding program through his high school. He is talented enough that he is working part time as a welder after school.
He has a high GPA and is applying to colleges right now.

Tonight, he showed me this photo and it "triggered" this post. 
Yes, crazy ugly cry going on.
Tyler should be here. I wish he didn't have to miss this and that my son did not have to deal with his teenage years without a father's guidance. 

YOU SHOULD BE HERE

I am so not ready for Tyler to be grown up. 

He is FOREVER my baby and I'm trying hard to be the best MOM and role model to him. I can't replace his FATHER. So the "trigger" was HARD tonight. I remembered the conversation Ty and I the last day of his life. I know Tyler wanted so much to see Ty graduate and go off to college. I made him a promise. 
I will never forget our tender conversation.
I promised him that I would raise our sons to KNOW and remember DAILY his love for them.
I promised they would KNOW how hard he FOUGHT to stay here with them.. with me.. with our family. 
He visited with the children and expressed his feeling and love and gave them advice the day before he died. Seth and McKay were serving missions for our church. I have since shared tender love messages with each of the children. I know that the memories are GOLD. The stories and feelings are FOREVER. They are REAL. I know that death is just a goodbye for NOW. 

Ty promised to watch over us. He was going to kick them in the butt if they messed up. He told them if they ever felt a pinch on their bum... it was him. I remind my kids of this. I heard a song today on the radio... it was by Cole Swindell. 

Tears overwhelmed me as I heard the lyric- 
You should be here. 
I want my handsome son to know YOU mean everything to me and your dad. We are proud of you. 

As Brian came in the bedroom, I was typing this post and crying the BIG "ugly" cry. I told him what I was feeling. I love that he simply hugged me and understood. Oh how our situation is so different. I am thankful that he understands my heart. As he left me alone to just "feel" I could not help but feel thankfulness come into my soul. I was reminded of the miracle of finding someone like Brian. I find so much STRENGTH on my weakest moments from him and his love for me. 

This was our wedding song and it brings peace to my soul.      

As I embrace each day I remember that I can smile and be thankful for ALL that I have had, the beautiful memories, the hard times and the times that I have stumbled and felt broken. I can go on knowing that I can endure hard things with LOVE and thankfulness. I will just be GRATEFUL. The "triggers" show that I am real and that I will never forget or not appreciate EVERY single person in my life. Thank you Tyler Collins for loving me and our family so much. I am reminded every day of this in a thousand ways. 





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YOU ARE INVITED TO A LUAU...

I am getting ready to set up for Pinner's Conference tomorrow. I had meetings all day today and I think my brain is MUSH.
So tonight I thought I would share a little about Pinner's.
The show is going to be at the Salt Palace (downtown SLC).
I am bringing pallets of my gold foil wrapping paper. We kept running out last show and this year I am prepared.

I am doing my booth with Silhouette this year too. The new TC Cameo 3 bundle and FABULOUS make n takes are happening and demos. I would talk more but I honestly can't focus tonight. 

So I thought I would SHARE about my event in Vegas that is NOW available to sign up and register for.  This is the 9th year. Each year I like to evolve and try and add new things. 

So 2017 TC VEGAS is going to be EPIC!!!!!

Join us for a LUAU party. 
I am not sharing the actual theme until JANUARY 1st.


The event starts on Thursday with a LUAU party. Yes, come dressed and there will be music, food, and entertainment. 
If you want you can even sign up for amazing ala carte workshop on Thursday during the day.


The event is SIX premiere workshops. Sept 21-23rd.
It's at the Green Valley Resort and Spa in Henderson, NV.


We would LOVE to have your join us. We have guests
come from all around the world. 

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Saturday, October 29, 2016

Mourning... MY STORY


I have written this blog post a thousand times in my heart and mind. It's so deeply personal to me, but I know so many people who can relate to what I intend to share. This morning I got up early knowing today is the day. I want to share about something that is ongoing in my life. It's every day and it's WHO I am now. I became widowed November 15th 2014. I lost my husband to a rare aggressive cancer. I still can't believe at times that Tyler is gone.

His death was the worst thing I had ever went through. I have been through a lot. This long 18 month battle with cancer brought me to my knees daily. I helplessly watched my husband endure such a nasty horrible struggle to life. He was so STRONG and had FAITH like no other. I learned so much. I battled with him. I do remember this time with sadness but honestly I think of the GOOD TIMES mostly. We laughed with tears as he lost his hair and he compared himself to our son in law. Often, we just watched FAMILY FUED together, and we each tried to be the winner. I rubbed his numb feet. 

By the end of this life, I was in the hospital with him. I slept by him on the hospital sofa in his room. I could not sleep as I heard his labored breathing and his moans from pain. I would take him to the rest room. To this day, I KNOW I was helped to carry him. I was given the sacred blessing of see him talk to angels and know the veil was thin. He was going to God. He fought it to the very end. I want you to know something. I will NEVER get over losing Tyler. 

I like to remember Tyler this way- smiling, holding the grand babies and how much he loved his family. 




He fought like a WARRIOR. 
I remember his STRENGTH.


I remember how much he HATED taking photos. 
I would talk him into doing it anyway.


The truth is this- I had no idea what I would feel or face. I was suddenly widowed. I went home and stayed in his pi's for days. I was completely lost. I thought I was strong. I had FAITH. I know DEATH is not the end. Here I was a complete and utter mess. I was not sleeping. I was goggling how to "know" and "feel" our dead was with us still. I was desperate. I was going through every love note he ever gave me. I had a 16x20 photo of Tyler in my front room of my home. I had it printed for the funeral. I left it up as a shrine. I had all the funeral flowers surrounding this shrine. I would just kneel and talk to his picture, sobbing uncontrollably. 




I was MAD he had left me. I was not doing good. I finally had to call a grief counselor. I was so sad and angry at the same time. To be honest, I was a HOT MESS. I thought I was stronger than I was. I was scared of myself. My poor kids were so worried about me. I remember my daughter McKay coming home from her mission and as happy as I was to see her- I felt DEAD inside.

This is where it's going to get REAL. I had a HARD marriage to Tyler. I loved this man. Oh my... we had a love journey. However, our marriage was filled with a lot of trials. I gently talked about them in the book I wrote. I found journals Tyler had left, notes and things that made me even sadder.  Tyler was the strongest man I have ever known. He was a very successful doctor. He was good-looking and such a hard worker. Tyler was human and had his weaknesses just like we all do. He loved to control pretty much everything. This was HOW he felt safe. I fought back. 

Our marriage was a constant battle of me fighting back. He often told me, "You are too d___ feisty." Well, I knew I had to stand up for myself. For almost 19 years I picked my battles. I agreed to not shop at night without him because he was afraid someone would hurt me. I agreed at times not to drink Diet Soda so he would stop getting so mad at me- or himpouring it down the sink. The problem is, I kept drinking the diet soda and he kept getting madder.  Yes, I was the "closet diet mtn dew drinker". I can LAUGH at this now. Seriously, we fought ongoing battles over this. 

I could tell you a hundred things that I could not stand about our marriage, but I could also tell you a 100 things that I loved. I choose to look at the good. This is me.  Seriously, I knew we did not have a "perfect" marriage. We went to counseling at times. The counselor gave me the book "When being in control is out of control." My counselor over the years helped me to understand and to stay sane. Tyler was so mad and took the book and ripped it up. I can laugh at that now.  I will tell you that I "knew" and felt he loved me. I knew I could not change him, nor could he change me. I felt for years, that I could "help" him feel safe with me. I tried so hard so he would not always feel so threatened that I would someday leave him. (1st wife left him and it scarred him). 

NOW TODAY.... 


Yesterday I went to the grave again. 
Why would I stop visiting him? Talking to him? Sharing with him?


Why does it always rain when I visit Tyler's grave? I love to talk and share my heart as I visit him. I know he watches over us. He was such a protector. My sister is law kind of summed it up best to me. She said, "Tyler, was obsessed with you." He loved me often in a way that was "too much" and was so afraid to lose me that he would try to smother or control. I had so much love and compassion for him knowing it was just him. I have no doubt that he knows how hard his death has been on our children and me. There has been nothing easy about this. I was sobbing yesterday as I drove to the grave. This is a ongoing grief. It just doesn't go away.



You don't stop loving someone when they die. I am so thankful Tyler took such good care of me and his kids.  I FOCUS on his goodness. I think when someone dies we tend to focus on just their good. I know that for me, there is peace in my soul as I remember the good and my kids and I can LAUGH at things we used to not think was so funny. He taught us life lessons. Tyler and I taught our children the importance of academics, working hard and how to LOVE themselves and others. We tried to foster the desire in them to serve God and others.  We were united to our goals as parents. This was US. We both were "imperfect" beings trying to raise children to be better than us. Tyler was a strict dad. He made us all so mad at times too. He was firm and stubborn. It made him Tyler. This man was so strong in his character, love and devotion as a husband and dad. I know he was with us as Seth got married. I felt it so strongly.

I want you to know if you know someone who is widowed... they never get over the loss and pain. You go on and God gives you strength you did not know you had. It's a trial I never thought I would endure, but I did and continue to do so. 

Brian was texting me yesterday. I told him that  I was on my way to grave. I love him. He supports, understands and let's me talk about Tyler. He knows that it takes NOTHING away from my love for him. I am beyond blessed. I have told people that it's like the love you have for a child. When you have a second child you think you cannot possibly love another child as much or feel the same way but you do. God gave us the ability to love MORE and for our heart to expand. That is why we can have several children and love them each the same. I believe Tyler somehow lead me to Brian after he passed. I can honestly say Brian is the most amazing person. I adore him and he is the reason I can smile during the new journey. I love him and it takes NOTHING from my marriage and love for Tyler.

GRIEF is real and it does not simply end in a "specific" time. There is no time clock. I don't think that is how it works (at least for me!) 
You continue to remember, love, cherish and focus on that person and what they meant to you. I share stories with my kids all the time. I often feel prompted to remind my sons over and over of the love that their dad had for them.  

My advice is this. Each day is a gift of TIME with your husband, wife, kids, parents and your  family. LOVE so much each day that you are constantly smiling and doing things that create memories. Don't put off seeing or talking to those that you love. MAKE IT HAPPEN. What is most important? 

I am different now. I wake up and know more personally that TIME is valuable. I can't get more of it. How will I spend my time? Who will I spend my time with? I know I want to make a difference in my family and home. I try hard to create memories and often it's the simple nightly meals at the dinner table. Don't forgot to EXPRESS your love to those in your life. They may be at a point of not receiving or wanting it, but still just do it. 
LIFE A LIFE OF NO REGRETS.






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Tuesday, October 25, 2016

AMAZON SILHOUETTE TERESA COLLINS CAMEO 3- EXCLUSIVE!!!!!!!!

I could not be more thankful and excited to share that you can NOW get my special BUNDLE with Silhouette & Amazon. I am in LOVE with this new CAMEO 3 machine.  If you have waited for the BEST machine and my exclusive bundle it's HERE!!!! There is three to choose from.


click here to see the exclusive AMAZON bundle offering-

Silhouette and I wanted to offer something amazing!




CLICK TO ORDER HERE



CLICK TO ORDER HERE!!!!!!


No matter which bundle you get THIS you will get my 25 FREE exclusive images, IDEA BOOK for inspiration and the most amazing die cut machine to be debuted. I am in LOVE with this die cut machine. WHY? 

It's so much easier than ANY machine I have ever used. I am admittedly afraid of machines. There I said it! I like simple, easy and I want to have a machine that can cut intricate (handwriting). 

Each of the BUNDLE comes with these EXCLUSIVE DESIGNS for you-

YOU get ALL of my EXCLUSIVE designs with the new TC SILHOUETTE AMAZON bundle. I love the full sheet of planner stickers you get too. This exclusive bundle is the BEST price, and you get all the designs. I hope you are as excited as I am. 
Happy Tuesday!!!!!




Friday, October 21, 2016

JOIN ME AT PINNERS CONFERENCE- UTAH!!!!!!


JOIN ME AT PINNERS CONFERENCE IN UTAH.... (Salt Palace Convention Center)


November 4-5, 2016

What is the Pinners Conference? It's two great events in one. It's a conference featuring 100 Pinterest-based classes taught by the best teachers in the nation. And it's also an expo with 200 top businesses providing beautiful options in the worlds of DIY, crafts, cooking, self-improvement, photography, party planning, scrapbooking, holiday, beauty and fashion and all sorts of other great things. What's Pinners? It's where Pinterest comes to life. And it's now your favorite weekend!


SIGN UP FOR CONFERENCE and MY WORKSHOP HERE:

Do you want to come and walk the show for FREE?

Here is my special code for attending and shopping-
The code is: freeshopping

This gives you a free General Admission ticket to come 
and shop the trade show floor.


*learn to make paper tassels, DIY journal and using the TC Fiskar line of tools!!!!


(TC CUT FILES- SILHOUETTE DESIGN STORE)

JOURNAL QUOTE BOOK... learn my tips and tricks for writing in your journal.

"DIY Planner Journal Print and Cut with Teresa Collins & Silhouette" - sponsors Teresa Collins, Silhouette and Fiskars

Join Teresa as she shows you how to use her best selling Silhouette designs to PRINT & CUT with the free Silhouette Studio software to create your own planner journal stickers. You will leave with a beautiful  DIY "OVER THE TOP CHIC" quote or planner journal with Teresa's exclusive Silhouette design store designs, journal and tools by Fiskars.  She is showing you her secrets for making mini books from office supplies, glitter tassels and gold embellishments. Don't miss out! The class is free. KITS OPTIONAL: $25.00

SATURDAY 3:30 PM 
 one workshop only
SIGN UP TODAY





Join me and Silhouette at the show and come see LIVE demos, shop and see the latest and greatest. We have a BEAUTIFUL booth with lots of inspiration. If you want to shop and buy my products and learn how to use the BRAND NEW Cameo 3- join us!!!! Yes, you can get the NEW EXCLUSIVE TC Silhouette bundle at the show. MAKE N TAKES, DEMOS and so much more!!!!!

UPDATED- the TC Silhouette EXCLUSIVE BUNDLE is now available TODAY!!!!


click here to purchase

YOU will see two other bundles available as well on AMAZON. 
Don't miss out!!!!!


It is UEA here in Utah so all the kids are out of school. I am loving the kids home and we are having a Halloween party- (well, my kids are and they like to have it at my house) on Saturday night. LIFE IS SO GREAT!!!!!


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Tuesday, October 18, 2016

YOU are your own INVESTMENT!!!!!!!

SERIOUSLY... I did not expect the reaction from my blog post yesterday. THOUSANDS of you read and many of you felt prompted to share with me. I have been "overwhelmed" with love, support and stories being shared. THANK YOU!  

This has been going on since I met my sweet husband. It's just been an ongoing "trial" to face.  I only shared because I am not hiding anything. I did nothing wrong. I love that my sister in law called me yesterday. Yes, Ty's sister is STILL my sister and family. She talked about the blog post. She knew that her brother, my husband would be PROUD that I stood up publicly for US... for HIM...for our children... for his memory... for ME... for our TRUTH. I just set the record very straight.

Now with so many people reading and reacting to my blog. I want to share something. I am a GIP. I learned this from Whippy Cake when she was my keynote speaker at my event.

                    "GIRL IN PROGRESS" 





I want to talk about YOU. I want to talk about me. I realize that so often we don't see how SPECIAL we are. We compare,  may lack confidence, and often don't do for ourselves. We are so HARD on ourselves at times. If you are a people pleaser like I am... it can be especially hard. So I want to tell you this. I learned and decided to make ME my own INVESTMENT! 

                 Does that even make sense? 
Yes.... YOU are your own investment. Take the time to focus on being the best you, to FEEL your best, to feel confident about YOU!!! I had a conversation with my dear friend today about doing things to feel FABULOUS in your life. 

We TAKE the time to watch tv, follow social media, to go out to eat, to ______________ FILL IN THE BLANK. Do you take the time to be the BEST you! 

We follow those famous celebrities... we compare, but guess what INVEST this time in YOU... your own life. Whippy Cake said something so cool. She said, "BE THE CELEBRITY OF YOUR OWN LIFE." 




As a mother, I knew I needed my children to LOVE themselves first. I taught them how to take care of themselves, their bodies, do their hair, how to dress, and to CARE about themselves and to FEEL their personal best.   Even with this, people can be cruel.  I don't think it has to do with WHAT you look like. I think investing in you is about doing things you LOVE, loving WHO you are, but also doing things to make you the BEST you!!!!!  I invest in loving myself everyday. Are you worth it? YES, you are. Please don't sell yourself short. Take the time to do things for YOU. MAKE the time... invest in you so that you FEEL the most amazing YOU. 

I had a conversation with Brian last night on this. The happier I am with me... the happier I am in every aspect of my life. I see my many weaknesses and I know what I need to do to improve. I often will do things to "invest" in myself. I will buy a book, take a nap, try new makeup, buy wonderful smelling perfume, etc. We are all unique and different. 




Okay- sorry but this is WHAT I have been thinking about. I had the best meeting this morning at Silhouette headquarters. So much is going on in my business. I am so happy!!!!! I love my world of design. Please join me at Pinner's Conference November 4th-5th. 2016. We are doing a booth together. I am also sponsored by Fiskars. I am doing ONE class only on Saturday at 3:30 pm if you want to sign up. It's a DIY journal planner workshop. So many things are HAPPENING right now and I am planning an event with Silhouette in Utah this February 2017 too.  MORE details very soon. 

LAST... I am going to the doctor to get this crazy itchy rash looked at. Wish me luck. Have a FABULOUS day!




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Monday, October 17, 2016

Seth Got MARRIED... DEEPLY PERSONAL


BE WARNED

This is going to be a longer post with lots of thoughts. I have thought over and over how to post some of the things that woke me up at  3 am to share. First, I have a RASH that will not go away. This past week has been super "unproductive" for me with this itch rash and some other reasons. I decided to FOCUS on watching 
my amazing BONUS son get married.

Seth and Ellie got married on Friday October 14th 2016 in the Payson LDS Temple. It is the most amazing temple. The ceremony was beautiful and I could not stop crying. My heart was FULL. My mind was so mindful of knowing Seth was missing his dad there.

Seth cried many tears as the ceremony took place. I wept with him. The love he has for Elizabeth (Ellie) and for Heavenly Father is so evident. I FELT he was missing his dad. I KNEW Tyler was there. I had NO doubts. I felt it. I am so thankful that I know that the Plan of Salvation if REAL. I know it so personally. I know that death is not the end. I have had deep personal witnesses of this. I know without a doubt that Tyler was there for this special day and that Seth knew it too. 

Here are just a FEW photos... I can't wait to see the wedding photographer's photos. 


Zellie and Tenneson (can you believe she is 4.5 years old?)


The bridesmaids (Gentry was stuck in traffic) I loved the color Ellie choose.


Outside the temple.


I seriously loved holding Thatcher. My heart is tender because in truthfulness, I rarely see Kayla and Matt's kids since they live in CA.


Zach, Tenneson and Tyler. 
Tyler is the tallest of the boys. (Zach and Ty are pretty even though so not sure how tall he will be when he comes home from his mission)


Zellie and I. ADORABLE little girl....


Okay it was CRAZY WINDY that day... CRAZY and the twins were not feeling too great...


This guy. OH how I love him. I have many TENDER thoughts on this to share later. I love that he is the biggest advocator of FAMILY and our kids. I have dealt with a death and he has dealt with a divorce. Our journey is quite different in that regard. 




At the reception.... I adore this couple.


I am seriously so thankful to be Seth's "other" mom. I call myself the BONUS MOM.


Silly times... yes, that is us. Devan is photobombing McKay and Mauro




Little Ty and Seth. I guess Ty is not so little anymore. How can he graduate this year? I'm not ready.




One of the gifts I made for Seth and Ellie. I used my papers and transparencies (gold dots, collectors edition and gold tape (gold glam) to create these. In the book, you write love letters back and forth. I was given this book (& idea) at my wedding  from my SIL Laurie and Kevin. I loved it.
The pencil I gave them with the WRITE book says "WRITE FROM THE HEART."
I hope they will write love letters to each other forever!!!!


handsome MAXSON




Cooper and Grandpa.
Yes, this is what Brian is wanting and THANKFUL to be called.
The kids call Tyler (PAPA and always will!!!!!!)




This was the temple that they were sealed for All Time & Eternity. In our church, we believe that marriages are not "until" death but can be FOREVER. I  did not grow up as a Latter Day Saint (Mormon) and I joined the church my senior year of high school. My personal believe is that death is only temporary and that we will be resurrected and with our families again. I get emotional as I type this. I have complete faith in knowing that God is real. 



Yes, I want to be with my family and I want to be worthy of this blessing. I love my grand babies. 

Cooper and Beckett did not plan to match outfits at the wedding. SUPER CUTE!!!!!


BE PREPARED.... sharing from my emotional heart now....


I just uploaded this photo and I have tears streaming down my face. 
This is Amy and little Ty. I had NO IDEA that one day this would be "the story." My husband would die of a horrible nasty cancer... I would be widowed in my forties... I would be HERE right now...

Amy is Seth's mom, Ty's ex wife and my friend. I greatly admire her heart, her kindness and for her "sharing" Seth with me for the past 20 years. I met him at age 2 when Tyler and I got married. My heart is so thankful that I was able to watch him grow up, and along with Tyler we raised together SEVEN amazing children. I loved every single one of them. 

STEP MOM... BONUS MOM... here is my journey....

I think the key is that BOTH of us did not fight or try to make Seth choose WHO he would love.  I never once felt Amy tried to make her son feel like he was not loved, wanted or put in the middle of their divorce. It was let's ALL just LOVE him!!!! I sat in the temple and watched Seth and Ellie get married and I was so thankful that I will ALWAYS be in Seth's and Amy's family life. 

I was married to my three girls dad at the young age of 19 years old. After seven years of marriage, we divorced and we both remarried. I will say that I wanted the girls step mother to LOVE my girls. I never wanted them to have "feelings" toward her. I wanted them to have so much LOVE in their life from their dad and I, Tyler (bonus dad) and their new BONUS mom.  

I was blessed to have years of our crazy blended families that just WORKED. I never ever would or did talk bad to any of my kids about their parent. I look back now and see what a healthy and blessing this was to our kids. Don't get me wrong, it was not perfect- divorce never is... but all decisions were done with the kids best interest and love. 

I have DEBATED for over a year about what I am about to share. I guess you could say I have ALOT of fear to share something so deep and personal to me. However, I feel I meet so many thousands of people and I get asked over and over the same question. Once you post something it's out there and many of you may have read that "someone" posted. Of course, I know exactly who this person. I try to be honest because I think by sharing our "journey" we can help others.

 

I had MANY people read my blog and see some NASTY untruths about Brian and I  that "someone" had decided to post. It was also posted on some "other" blog about me. I was heartbroken for my children and outraged. I have kept silent publicly  but I know for a fact that the TRUTH deserves to be TOLD and by me. I am sad that anyone feels the need to LIE to people about WHEN and HOW I met Brian.  The situation was portrayed to be an affair and I will not tolerate this untruth. 

I loved Tyler with all my heart. I will ALWAYS love him. He did not deserve his memory to be one in which  "someone" wanted others to believe that I had met or dated Brian prior to him dying. 

In fact, the "lie" was HORRIBLE, VICIOUS and UNTRUE. While my sweet handsome husband was enduring his final days on this earth, I was by his side. I slept on the couch in the Huntsman Cancer Institute. I did not want to leave his side for a moment. I would crawl in the bed with him at times and hold him. I cried with him. I grieved with him and his passing.  I witnessed as he was talking to angels and I knew the veil was thin. I ache as I remember this time. My world was so very sad. I was heart broken and I was devastated.  You can never prepare for something like this. I loved Tyler and he loved me. 

"Someone" has decided to keep telling lies that I had met, dated and went to "lunch" with Brian while my husband was in the hospital dying of cancer. As you can imagine, my kids and I are completely SICK that "someone" wants to say these things to hurt someone. Tyler died November 15th. It was the saddest day I have ever experienced and my kids and I were completely heartbroken.You simply do not ever get over this.


I met Brian for the first time in January and told him that I was looking for "friendship." I had no idea he was meant to be on my "new journey" with me and my family. I had never met or known him nor did Tyler. He was not working with Tyler on anything and this is the truth. This man came into my life at the time and in a place that I believe he needed me as much as I needed him.  It was crazy unreal. I knew it took a very special man to want to deal with the "REAL" life of being with a widow and children who had lost their dad. I give Brian so much credit. 

I have learned that EACH of us have our own journey, our own timing and we have to just LISTEN to our heart and the spirit to guide us.  The reality is, my children and I are still healing and we talk and celebrate LIFE in a different way now. We were in the temple together as a family on Friday and we laughed and talked about good memories of Tyler. Brian was with us and holding my hand as we do this.  It would have been my hope that Brian would have come from a similar background of peace in his past and previous marriage. Unfortunately, this is not the case and it's been one of the hardest experiences for him and our marriage. I am trying to be very delicate here.  Again, a great reminder to BUILD and not BREAK. 

 We are GROWING our family. This was just a SILLY photo from yesterday. 

missy, parker, brian, mckay and mauro

RANDOM, UNPLANNED, REAL and I wish everyone was in the photo that was at the house. We just have FUN!


Zach is doing AMAZING and loves Brazil so much!!!!! I sure miss this boy.


Life is too SHORT to be anything but HAPPY. 
TRUST your own JOURNEY.
Don't let anyone try to tell you that your journey is wrong if you know in your heart that it's YOUR path.
Stand up for what is right and do the RIGHT thing.



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