Sunday, March 22, 2015

NEVER FORGET

I am in ATLANTA. I am boarding in a few minutes to head back home to Utah. TODAY is a day that is going to be HARD. It is Tyler's birthday. The family will be going to his grave. I went on Thursday before I came. The grave stone is finally there and it is beautiful. Sometimes it feels like this really is not reality.  I know that Heavenly Father is so mindful of our family and especially the needs of our boys. I look at Ty and Zach and think of how hard it has been to see him suffer and endure the cancer and in the end return to God at such a young age. I know without a doubt that Ty is still very present and he is watching out for each of us. Words can never articulate the loss this has been and the pain each of us have been through. I have been very mindful that this is a journey and you never truly get over a loss like this. My boys are in high school now and I often  think... "what would Ty want?, what would he say now?" This is a very tender day. It is also the mission farewell for Joe- his nephew (his sisters son). How great is it that it is today? Some days are just HARDER than I even can express. Thankfully, there are more good days than bad and I try to keep GOING and have FAITH in Heavenly Father's plan.

I was LIFTED here. I got so much more from being here at the EMI store event than anyone else. I needed this love and kindness. It uplifted me and I felt more strength from this BRAVE and beautiful girls here.







I am reminded of WHY I do what I do. I am so thankful and blessed. I look at my problems and realize that when I focus on WHAT I do have- and I count my BLESSINGS that I can and will endure EVERY single trial that comes my way. It's okay if I shed some tears along the way. I am so thankful for the opportunity to come and feel their heart and kindness. Susan with EMI Scrapbooking in Cumming, GA did a FANTASTIC job on hosting this event. AMAZING... seriously, this is WHY I keep coming back to her store. SOLD OUT workshops and we all felt a ROOM full of LOVE. I don't have words to articulate it. It was SPECIAL and I'm going home with this intense feeling. THANK YOU so much Susan and ALL the girls who came. Yes, from ALL over the USA and Canada.

During my last workshop- I got a call from my realtor. We has listed the house the day before and we had an offer. YES, CRAZY... the very next day. I could not believe it. I just had to thank Heavenly Father for blessing us.

I have to say... it will be HARD to leave my home. I guess I knew that this was going to be hard, but I knew it was TIME.









 

This was the ONLY home that Ty and I shared. We bought it together and blended a beautiful family. We had our two sons together. It was full of so many memories. I designed the kitchen and had everything custom made. I recently refinished all the hardwood floors. I picked all the chandeliers and lights and tried hard to have a home that my family loved. However, it was TIME to move on... for me and our boys. We made this decision and I know it was the right one for us. I am so grateful that no matter how I decorated, redecorated or tried to make our house a home that Ty loved and supported my design passion. I think he loved when I crafted because it was much cheaper than furniture or home remodeling. I always had free reign on the house and it was my "baby." I now will have a new home to "decorate" and make a home. 

BOARDING now... Hope you have an AMAZING Sunday!!!!

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Tuesday, March 17, 2015

JUST BE HAPPY

I am headed to Atlanta to teach on Friday. This is my first teaching weekend in several months. I know it will be JUST what I need. #can'twait

With so much going on in my life, it could be really easy to feel overwhelmed and stressed to the point I am not happy. I have come to the point where I just have to focus on the NOW. I focus on the day and not ALL the things ahead. I remind myself that I am strong and I can do anything with the RIGHT attitude. I was feeling a little sorry for myself on Sunday and I made myself take a time out "nature/hiking and walks" for my sanity. I immediately felt better. I know these alone times are good for me to reflect on my life and what God really wants me to do. If we are being honest with ourself, we all struggle with times of sadness, disappointment and our personal fears. We are human and it's easy to feel like our good is not good enough. It's easy to compare our life with someone else. 



I am determined to just be happy and be grateful for THIS journey and know that I am simply doing the best I can. I am trying hard to balance life right now. I have moments of feeling like my best is not good enough, but then I remember to COUNT MY BLESSINGS and not my PROBLEMS. I decided to design this as quote as a 8x10 Teresa Collins art gallery so you can PRINT this out for yourself. It's something I think about every day when I'm face challenges. I remind myself DAILY that Heavenly Father does not ever give us more than we can handle. 


DOWNLOAD the IMAGE and PRINT by clicking HERE
If you have the Canon iP PIXMA 8720 it will print it out.


In deciding to sell my house, it was one that I did on complete faith. They are listing it this week and a open house. They came last night and took photos. REALITY set in. WOW....

 I have already had people calling though and wanting to see it NOW. It will be hard to leave my home because I designed and decorated it. This is the home Ty and I started our family in. We had two handsome boys and raised our brady bunch together.  It is now time to let another amazing family move in and love it. 


I never thought my life would be what it is right now. We can't plan our life. It is a JOURNEY. I am accepting the new course. I am thankful and appreciative for all that I have. I am thankful for the people that Heavenly Father has put into my life to help me. 

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Sunday, March 15, 2015

ONE CRAZY FABULOUS WEEK....

This week has been one CRAZY fabulous week. 
Zach started his high school baseball games.
He is so talented and yet so humble. I love this kid so much.
He is the catcher for Varsity on the MHS baseball team. On Friday he hit a home run and had 5 RBI's. He is doing really well considering his injuries at the end of last season. My heart is tender knowing that baseball was a HUGE thing for him and his dad. It was their connection and I know this is hard for him to look up at the stands and his dad is not there. I have reminded him to KNOW that his dad is truly still there. Ty is watching over him.

Taylor gave Gentry the most amazing baby shower yesterday. The family and many friends came to celebrate the arrival of the soon to be born baby boy. (MAY) She has only 8 weeks to go and she is glowing. I was the crazy mom who lost it and cried during the shower.

I don't think my kids will ever know the love I have for them until they become parents themselves. I remember thinking... "wow, I was so hard on my mother. " I loved my mother in a new way and with greater respect when I became a mother. I know that Gentry will be the most amazing mother. Devan's mother has been quite sick and was not able to come. My heart was tender thinking of her and her situation. I was thinking of her nonstop. We are both going to have this little grandson together. She gave Gentry a quilt from when he was born and wrote a beautiful letter with photos of Devan's birth and childhood. I could not control the emotions. What a thoughtful gift!!!! 


I was so proud of Taylor and her gifts for entertaining. She is beautiful and is 14 weeks pregnant too. She is due September 11th. YES, two grand children in ONE year. I could not be happier. 


Kayla flew up from CA and the girls were all together.  


I am very blessed in so many ways.  


Devan, Travis, Zach and Ty went golfing... yes, I love the boys too.
When Tyler died last year, I realized that my life was forever changed. I would walk around my home and just felt so many emotions OVER and over. I knew that I was needing to address some things and one of those things was the feelings over and over that it was time for our family to move. I have spent a lot of time, prayer and thought about this. It was a discussion with my boys. So tomorrow- I am listing my house up for sale. I am moving now and know that this is exactly what I need to do. It does not make it easy and I'm really sad to leave my neighbors. I have loved Murray. 


Yes, CHANGE is hard. I feel like I have endured so many trials and I am having to be strong, listen to my heart and follow those prompting. 

Next weekend I will be flying to Atlanta and teaching for the 5th year at the EMI Scrapbooking Event event weekend that hosts me to come out and visit & teach workshops. 

These are the projects we will be doing-


Friday NIGHT workshop- DOCUMENT LIFE
(my new foiled transparency clear paper)
*TC file folder chipboard album
*please bring your crocodile to workshop.




*NEW TAG PAPER mixed with some of my FAVE papers. 


*TC embossing folders and machine will be used in workshop!!!! 


I'm LOVING my new papers. GOLD + paper!!!! 



LOVE my die cut butterfly too!!!!!
TC labeling stickers and enamel dots.


LOVE my new TAG papers. They are finally going to be available in the USA soon. 


TC Fiskars- small STAR punch.

SATURDAY AM WORKSHOP-
GOLD TC CLIPBOARD 
PROJECT




YES... GOLD spray paint, page protectors and more. *bring a variety of photos sized 3x4 and 4x6 as desired. I am in LOVE with this project. We will be using my office, stationery and clipboard products.

SATURDAY PM WORKSHOP

INSPIRATION JOURNAL




I felt so strongly to use my GOLD notebook and create a quote, inspiration book that you can customize yourself.



I love to write down things that inspire or motivate me. You can add photos to the bound notebook if you wish. I even added my stationery card and envelopes to the book. 





I am looking forward to seeing all of you there that are flying and driving to the event. I thank you for the MASSIVE support. This will be a great event and I'm excited to see all of you. The event is SOLD OUT and I am very grateful for the support.


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Thursday, March 12, 2015

It's WHAT matters


I love my family. They came to watch Zach play his first baseball game of the high school season this past Monday. Yes, Gentry is 7 months pregnant and she GLOWS. 


This is KJ. Yes, he is like family. He is my other son and he calls me MOM. I love that my kids friends are close with me too. I have had their friends come and talk to me when my children are not even around. I love this. I have always loved that my children have amazing friends. 


They drove up from Provo to be here. McKay took a later shift at the Creamery (BYU job) to come. This meant a lot to her little (big) brother. We celebrated by going to Noodles & Co together afterwards. 


Zach is Varsity catcher for Murray High School. 




They do seem to pass the time at the games having fun. Ty even came to the game and he is not the biggest baseball fan. 


I wish that Taylor could have come. She is starting to feel somewhat better in the pregnancy but she is emotional. (her words!!!!) 


I know I am biased but WOW Gentry is beautiful. I love her pregnancy style. I never looked this fabulous being pregnant. She has her baby shower on Saturday. Can't wait to hold my brand new little grand son. I am over the moon excited. 



The gang watching Zach. I love Kenadee and her family so much. They are now like family to us. Dean and Jami are her parents and have truly almost adopted Zach. I feel so much gratitude for this family. 


I love work meetings. We are being productive. Mike doesn't like being in the photos. We really do love working together.



I am headed to ATLANTA Georgia. I am going to Susan's 5th Annual event that she hosts for me to come. It's SOLD OUT and we have so much fun. Yes, I love going to Cummings Georgia. It's so fun!!!!
 

I had lunch with this sweet girl yesterday. Margie Aslett Romney does amazing SPARK workshops and she is teaching at my VEGAS event on Thursday. SOON you can sign up. She is teaching four workshops and they will be so inspiring and the girl is FUNNY. I am thankful to call her my friend. YOU can get on the wait list for the event- bridget@teresacollinsstudio.com.  The event is SOLD OUT at this point but we have added an entire day of workshops from amazing teachers and I will be teaching as well.  

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