Monday, February 16, 2015

LIFE RIGHT NOW....


The best package came to my office. I'm so blessed to work with Canon. I am printing today and preparing to make a TC Canon video for Jo-Ann Fabric and Craft Stores.BIG things are happening that you are going to be excited about!!!!! Just appreciating the many ways to document life. I'm the biggest CANON fan. Thank you Canon for the cameras and fun package. It was like Christmas!!!!!!!!! Thank you so much Canon for being amazing and I love being a spokesperson for you. #dreamcometrue.



I am loving working today with Brie and Bridget. We are working on my Joann Headquarters presentation.
I surround myself with those that love and believe in me.
I want them to be happy and want to come to work.

I am just so thankful for my company, my staff and the blessing of feeling inspired every single day. I have the best job in the entire UNIVERSE!!!!!!!!


Yesterday was amazing in that it was JUST what I needed. I went to Relief Society at church and the lesson was JUST what had been on my mind. It was how in life we have HARD times and we have to look and find JOY even in the midst of hard times. My friend Katherine gave the lesson. It was beautiful. I was sitting and listening and reflecting on my life in the past couple of years. I can honestly say that the hard times definitely can knock you down. I can honestly say that I have been at my lowest and known what it was like to feel so sad. I also knew that it was the time that I turned to my Heavenly Father first. I was on my knees praying more than I ever had in my entire life. I knew that I could not do this on my own.

I knew that Ty's death would FOREVER change the rest of my life. It would change my children's life. I was now a single mother and I was not prepared for all the changes. For the first month, after he died- I was in the biggest FOG. I don't know if this is the best way to describe it. I was used to his strong presence in my life, our home... I know that for me it was a blessing to have the 18 months to say goodbye with his cancer. We had talked and hoped  for the blessing of FIVE more years. We talked privately about the fact that this cancer was never going to be cured. He tried to prepare me at times to be alone. He wanted to know that I would be strong and keep going. I knew that I had to FIGHT just as hard to LIVE LIFE after he died. I had to not dwell in the darkest times, but be HAPPY again. It was like a light bulb went off one day. I woke up and had been BEGGING Heavenly Father to help me have PEACE and JOY and feel like myself in some small way again. I had survivors guilt. My heart was heavy with pain. I have always been happy and very positive in life. This was NOT like me to feel so discouraged. 

Then it happened. God helped lift me. I went the entire day without crying. It was a true miracle and I laughed, smiled and knew I would be okay. I had felt like I was me again. I knew that Tyler would be so happy for me.  I knew my kids would have their mother back. I know that LIFE can be hard. Each day things happen and we have to make the decision on how we react to it. Bitter or Better?????  I want to be better from my trials. They have refined me. It really does make me appreciate the EVERYDAY moments. I will NEVER look at life the same way again. I will LIVE every day with purpose, JOY and know that it's all about how you LOOK at the things that are hard. We all have trials and I was reminded yesterday in the lesson, that it's really how you FACE  them and you can be HAPPY during the darkest times. 

I am happy. I am going to be FEARLESS in living LIFE and hopefully to make a positive difference in the world. I can FACE hard things and so can you. I tell myself that I am strong and confident in myself. I am not giving up on living life to the fullest because this is what God would want from me and each of you. This is what I am talking about to 900 people at Joann Headquarters on March 5th. I am honored to share my story, my heart and my PASSION for living life to the fullest. I am sharing my business journey and how I have grown my company and brand. I feel outrageously BLESSED.

Okay- HERE is the BIG announcement for my VEGAS event. Here are the amazing designers coming to educate and inspire you- want to sign up to get on the list for my event???? 



LAURA FUNK, LORI ALLRED, RICHARD GARAY, MARGIE-ROMNEY ASLETT, and JILL STRASBURG and ME!!!!!!! I am even teaching the day before for the FIRST time ever in VEGAS. I can't wait to see all of you again. Plus, remember the main workshop event designers are Teresa Collins, Mark Montano, Amy Filimoehala, Stephanie Smokovich, and Beth Kingston. This line is up of designers is going to be OVER THE TOP inspiring!!!!!

TERESA COLLINS EVENT CONTACT-
 bridget@teresacollinsstudio.com

*you will receive a confirmation from Bridget. THANKS!!!!!!!




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Saturday, February 14, 2015

you are so LOVED, darling!!!!!

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!!! 

It's really just another day...February 14th. It's a day that is focused on LOVE. In reality this should be our FOCUS every single day of our life. It's #whatmattersmost.


It is so simple.
LOVE is WHAT we all crave and want.
To love and to feel LOVED. 


When Tyler got sick with cancer, it HIT our family HARD. He went from being so FIT and active. It was so unexpected. He got sick and it hit him hard FAST. It opens your eyes to LIFE. It was a time for reflection. I realized then and now that LIFE is all about LOVE. It's about LOVING life, the people in our LIFE and showing that LOVE. We had many talks... many regrets and things that would have been different. You always think you have TIME. We quickly realized that this is not the case. There are times we do and say things we shouldn't have. We need to make each day a precious gift to ourself. We must use our time to show and give our love to others. We are imperfect humans and often we get it wrong. We say and do wrong things. We can hurt those we love the most and in the end... don't we all do it because of the LOVE we have for them? 



I believe that LOVE starts within ourself.
We have to LOVE ourself before
we can truly love others.
SELF LOVE is something to work on
EVERY single day.
Don't be so hard on yourself.

So TODAY-

LOVE YOU
LOVE the IMPERFECT YOU
LOVE your flaws
LOVE and LEARN from your mistakes
LOVE your IMPERFECT LIFE
LOVE the IMPERFECT PEOPLE in your life- (that is ALL of us!)


I learned what LOVE was when I became a mother. I learned what it was to give your heart completely. I loved my babies more than I thought humanly possible.  I knew that I would willingly take a bullet and die for any of my children. I learned unconditional LOVE from loving my babies. My mother and I would sometimes not see eye to eye when I was younger and in the end she always said- nothing will ever change that I love you. You are stuck with me as your mother!  My children are imperfect too and when they make mistakes- I still love them more than life. I hope they will LOVE me when I do the same. 

LOVE CAN HURT AND GET COMPLICATED- 
we often hurt those we love the most. 
So that is why we have to be willing to forgive and just LOVE, LOVE, LOVE and love more. In the end, I know it's WHAT matters most to each of us. 


 This is TRUE....


Our family has been through so much lately. Each day is a new day and facing Ty's death has been nothing I ever wanted our children and I to face. We all loved Tyler and each of us are dealing with his loss in our life in our own way. It has not been EASY.
It has been a HARD journey and his death last year was such a painful time. I am certain that Heavenly Father's LOVE is the REASON each of us can FACE and ENDURE hard times.


I was determined to stay positive, happy and grateful during my darkest time.  I
was on my knees asking for STRENGTH
to endure it well and to LOVE more
and LOVE myself- even when I wondered if I was "grieving" the right way, facing new challenges and learning to be GENTLE with myself. I had to allow myself to LOVE life in a new way and that it was OKAY.


I am going to keeping LOVING life and every single day of it. I am going to LOVE my children, family and friends with FIERCENESS and every day just be full of appreciation for this crazy wonderful life. 

HAPPY LOVE DAY... remember to #spreadlove.


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Thursday, February 12, 2015

This is happening....



I had to share this with you. I love my Studio Gold card sets and embellishments. This is Lauren Hender's video. I LOVE it!!!! I love love love it. I love how she showcased my products. Thanks Lauren for doing this.

I have to say it's WONDERFUL to be home for the next month. I am enjoying getting Zach ready for JR Prom. He is going to look handsome in the black tux. I get to escort him at the State Capital next weekend. I am so thankful that he is such a great kid. He was recently made Seminary President at his school. 

I found this quote and it spoke to me-


I think this is so true. How often do we regret things we have said or not said. In the end, it's all about LOVE. I realize more than ever how precious life is. It's to be lived and to be appreciated. 




I am having some serious fun girl time this weekend. Who doesn't love birthday celebrations. A group of us are getting together to celebrate her birthday and I cherish more than ever how important friends and family are. They love you when you make mistakes, stumble and fall, succeed, deal with hard times and during the good times. I am really thankful for the love and support I have in my life. I am feeling happiness and peace again. I am smiling and happy and realize that Heavenly Father wants us to each feel loved and happiness. 



HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRIDGET!!!!!
She has decided to change her business card to:
Bridget 
Director of Teresa

I guess this could be a good thing.





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Tuesday, February 10, 2015

WHERE DOES THE TIME GO?????

I am back from Germany and I'm now having the reverse jet lag and time adjustment. I am trying not to blog or do too much since I am seriously having sleep issues. I wanted to blog and say I'm okay... yes, stressed and trying to deal with a million things. This was my longest trip away from my home and boys and it was beyond difficult. I can say now that I can't do this again. It was way too hard. I loved Germany though, but it was not good for me personally to be away so long. 

I loved snow. I am happy I went. I just am home now and just want to focus on trying to get things back to normal. I hope you followed me on Facebook and Instagram. I posted so many photos from the journey.


I am up in the middle of night AGAIN and I've cleaned, done my laundry and thinking about life. I wanted to share this...


I am up and going so I thought I should go do something that makes me happy. I'm headed to the temple now... 5 am. I can't wait to do this. I am home. THANK YOU Germany for the massive love and support. So thankful to be home again!!!!!



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Sunday, February 1, 2015

GERMANY & Sunday Thoughts



I am here in Germany. It's hard in that I am still not on German time. It is 8 hours ahead for me here. We are sleeping 2-3 hours from exhaustion and then we wake up at the same time. We are wide awake in the middle of the night here.
It's hard so we just Skype, talk etc. 
 


We are so tired in the daytime it is killer. I am feeling like a walking zombie and have little energy now. We are on day 5 here and we have 7 more to go. 


I am having a hard time being away from my family today. I have a hard time being away from them especially when it's this long. This is my longest trip ever. Tyler was always the one who would be home with our kids so I did not have to worry. I always worry, but there was so much comfort. It has really been hard for me to try to balance and do it on my own. I know that I never thought this would have been my reality. It is much harder than I ever thought. 

I have tried so hard to go on... try to remain happy and positive and deal with Ty's death. I don't think you can ever prepare yourself ever to deal with the emotions and loss. I have to say talking about your feelings with someone is really important. I have talked and talked. I have learned that everyone deals with death differently. I have learned there is NO manual and NO timeline on how and what to feel. I have learned this is my journey and so is my children's. I visit Ty's grave still every Sunday before or after church. Sometimes my boys want to go with me, but mostly they don't. I realize that they are having their own journey too.

Mostly, I am grateful for Heavenly Father who has blessed me to feel peace. It's vital to remain thankful for life. I am so thankful for the blessing of what Tyler taught each of us. Tyler is forever a part of our family and life. Each day there are reminders and it is often hard to articulate the feelings. This is a journey I would not want ever wanted or asked for. Many of you still email me and ask how we are doing. When Tyler died last year, it changed our family forever. I know that for me personally, it has been through Heavenly Father and prayer that I have been able to get out of bed, go back to work, and somehow remain positive, thankful and feel happy again. I know many widows who I'm now friends with that  I talk to often. I am so grateful for all of you. Mostly, I am thankful for those of you who are there for my kids too. They each are unique and deal with their dads passing differently.

Today I just want my kids to know that they are EVERYTHING to me. I am so proud of each of them. I am so excited for the gift of a grand baby in May. This is making me giddy. I am blessed with the best of friends that make life so wonderful.

Now I thought I would share photos from the show.


My new line- COLLECTORS EDITION- loving the beautiful gold foil with mint!!!!




She runs a LARGE online site in the Netherlands. She carries everything of mine!







So loved seeing her again. She is always SMILING. I love my German friends so much.




My friends from Como, Italy. I am definitely wanting to make it back there to visit and teach.













I definitely love seeing my stores from Spain here.



My friends from Switzerland. Thankful for their support of my product too.










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