Sometimes I just have to share the things that are tugging at my heart. Right now, I am feeling so impressed to share with you about my journey. Hmmm... my journey. This week at the Stationery show was eye opening to me. I was able to see where my creative journey has lead me. I so vividly remember being a young girl and HATING to go with my mom to her clients homes. I thought it was odd than anyone would need someone to "help" them decorate their home. I was probably jealous of the time it took away from me and how hard she worked to provide for my sister and me. I was in the booth talking to a well known store that I never thought I would be talking to. I was beyond excited to see their reaction to my lines. It was a open discussion and I told them WHY I was inspired to design the items in my collections. It was a story and we instantly connected. I knew that by following my dreams and designing as a end consumer... WHAT would I want? WHAT is not available? That it would be something I was proud of. I literally CRIED in my booth today. Yes, I had a moment... a discussion... something so wonderful happened today that I knew my mother was close by watching. I felt her spirit. I knew my mother is watching over me and she is the reason I ever started into my creative journey. I am at the NSS because of my husband. He is the one who helped me to KNOW that I can do great things if I believe in myself. He is encouraging me like my mother did.
I found out some bad news this week. It's hard. My cute husband needs to find a donor match and my son Zach has a disease that is effecting his back. He was so hurt in the week prior to state playoffs in baseball that he has to not play baseball for the entire Summer months. He was selected to play on the Bucks team this Summer too. He was going to be traveling to different states and playing on this really amazing team. He had to let them know he can't. We are looking at surgery if it does not get better. I prayed and felt instantly that God does not give us anything that we can't handle. I knew that there is always a PLAN B. I know that things change in an instant. YOU can plan all you want but really every day... every moment... things change and happen.
It's hard to see my two boys hurt and I do feel helpless. This week, I would be in my booth and hear my phone text sound ring. I got texts constantly from tyler. " i love you." "i'm so proud of you." "you got this beautiful." "ILYMTAYCSTOF" and many more. My husband is what keeps me going. For all the trials, the medical bills, the fears, the pain, the tears... we just keep going. We take it day by day. We just know that no matter what we have each other. I love him so much and every time something great happened I would tell my girls... text dad. He was there... in my heart... in his heart... distance can't divide this. No matter what DEATH will not stop love. I still have my mother in my heart forever. I know that when Ty or I pass away we have a connection, a love that will FOREVER be felt and we will be together. I just wanted to share this. I love you all and thank you for loving ME... US... my family and helping me feel like I can do this.
I love you Tyler. We can do this. I am in this with you. I believe with all my heart that we are going to find the perfect match and you will make it through this next battle. I'm with you... we can do it together best friend.