I am so struggling to write this blog post. I thought long and hard on how to talk about this RIGHT now. I don't want to even think about CANCER anymore. It makes me sad and it makes me angry that CANCER is so prevalent in so many families. It takes away too many life's. It is a REALITY and it's not one anyone wants to face or wants anyone that love to ever deal with.
However, we have been facing the REALITY of Ty's
Peripheral T-Cell Lymphoma. It's not anything I had ever even knew existed
until last Summer. I did not know how this CANCER would change our life & our family forever. I am so sad for what Tyler has had to endure this. He is still very much in a daily recovery mode. It's a very long long long.... process after the intense chemo treatments and then the transplant/hospitalization. I won't go into the details but it's a long HARD journey of recovery for transplant patients. I know I can't even fathom what he is going through.
We marked the 100 day post transplant in MARCH 2014. I was so thankful that they did not see any cancer. We celebrated his birthday on March 22nd with much HAPPINESS!!!! Then April 22nd... my cute husband let me know that he had a large lump on his neck. This was and is still the BIGGEST shock. I can't even tell you how in utter disbelief I still am that we are facing our worst fears so soon. It's hard to not feel discouraged. I know Ty needs me more than ever to be strong.
We do not know if the cancer is back. Today is another day at the Huntsmen Cancer Institute. Ty has been once and they asked him to come back after ten days. We will need to do more tests and another surgical biopsy now. They had wanted to see if the swollen lump in his neck would go away. It hasn't yet, so today Ty and I are going to the hospital. I can't accept right now that it's back so just know this. I am full of hope that it's just a residual of the treatments. Regardless, the love of my life is pretty down about this "set back" and our family is deeply concerned. The lump has grown bigger in the last ten days and some days it seems smaller. It's such a psychological roller coaster. Thankfully he only has ONE lump. I am trying to look at the positive in that no more lumps have shown up.