Okay... this week has been tough. I am so thankful it is FRIDAY. I can't sleep with so many things racing through my mind. Last night... I embraced it and sat up in bed to work. I decided to just embrace that I'm on brain activity overload. I will catch up hopefully tonight. Anyway, I have learned lessons this week that have completely made me realize that change has to happen. I know that I have been praying and fasting so much lately that I will really feel what is right for me and my family. I needed to feel in my heart that I am doing what HE wants and knows I can and should do. It has taken months to face a huge lesson of faith regarding some things that have needed to change in order for me to grow. The past few weeks has been one in which I have been relying on prayer and fasting to find answers. I knew if I was patient the answers would come. The comfort would come. The direction would come. I am at peace. I told my close friend today that when prayers are answered you know it... you feel it. I told her that it felt like God has put a blanket around my heart and said "TRUST ME... daughter of mine, I have you. I will be here and it's all okay." I can't tell you how much I needed this.
With so many great things on the horizon, I have seen God's hand in our life. Ty is really feeling the effects of his chemo treatments. My husband- the love of my life- is truly facing the battle of his life. Yesterday, he met with his bone marrow transplant oncologist. I don't want to share what was shared. Dr. Boyer does not sugar coat anything. He knows Ty as a doctor himself wants to know the truth and the facts. I'm not ready or want to hear anything negative. This is just my way of life. I do believe in MIRACLES. Just know that my husband is the STRONGEST, BRAVEST man that I have ever known. He is more worried about ME than himself. Last night, as we talked about life and the future... all he could think about was me and our children. I'm crying as I share this. This man is GIANT. He is the reason I am where I am. He is my biggest fan. He needs to know that I will be able to take care of our family no matter what happens. He is preparing me to do this alone and I just can't accept it. My heart is shattered. I try so hard to be strong... but some days I feel WEAK... so tiny... so scared... so sad. I want you all to go hug and tell those you love HOW much you love them... HOW much they mean to you... DON'T let stupid fights and drama control your life. Cherish every single day.... I know I am. We are still fighting... every day... trust in miracles.
Okay... now let me share something that is all sparkly and fun. Have you seen my new paper chain banner kit that I debuted at the NYC stationery show? Its not any paper chain kit you will find or have seen before. I designed it as a DIY banner kit and you get FORTY speciality treated gorgeous designed banner strips with of gold foil and gold glitter mixed with white. I did the designs in dots, cabana stripes too in foil. I searched and searched for speciality banner kits and since no one had them, I knew it was the time to design my own collection of them. YES, WATCH for many more. No worries that are going to be available soon . Wait til you see the other ones like this coming out! hint hint... cough cough... blush pink... Did I just share that??????