It will be month(s) in the hospital at this time. I am trying to think POSITIVE and know that this is truly a blessing that we can do this procedure to save his life. The first month is the worst because of the intense chemo treatments and then the transplant follows. I know from the previous one that Ty needs me there as much as possible. After the transplant he needs more time just to sleep and recover and often asked no one to visit him. He is simply too weak to even move, walk or talk. I know what to expect now.
The good truly does outweigh the bad. I know that our FAITH is getting us through this. I know that others often cannot fathom why we are choosing to be happy and positive. I had a horrible time last time when he was in the hospital- I could not sleep and I was truly just all over the place emotionally. This time I feel like I can handle things much better. I know that I am stronger in so many ways. I won't bore you... but just know I am surrendering to God each day to do the best I can to handle each and every thing that is coming my way.
Just tonight, I called in veggie sushi at my favorite restaurant. We have gotten to know the owners very well. They used to see us almost weekly. Then we had to let them know why we were not doing our usual "wednesday take out" orders. Tonight, the owner asked me "How can you do this... without crying all the time. " She said she could never do it. She was just amazed that I was not devastated. I thought... "does she think I'm bad for not breaking down all the time?" I cry every single day. I pray nonstop for God to heal Tyler. I find myself at time overwhelmed with depression as I wake up in the morning. I remind myself to get out of bed. I can't let the doubts cripple me. I try not to show these moments to anyone. I told her that I do have moments (many moments) and that I have to be strong. I can't think negatively. What good can this possibly bring to Ty, myself and our children? I told her I just don't think of what if it does not work. I can't... I won't. I have to keep the FAITH and HOPE that God is mindful of us and our prayers. He is going to make it all okay. No matter what happens. I won't become bitter. I hope this makes sense.
I am going on just one teaching trip this month. SHE SCRAPBOOKS in The Villages, Florida. I adore Yvonne and Stephanie and the girls at She Scrapbooks. This is like going to visit my family. I love these girls so much. I am so thankful to go back again. I am going with my son Tyler. He loved it so much he begged me to go again. This is his second time going with me too. He is taking his best friend Hunter. This is a work/vacation for us. I am so excited. My dear friend Lisa M emailed me and got us a room at one of the Disney Resorts for FREE. Wow... I was and am overwhelmed at her kindness. She got the room and I had no idea until I got an email with my reservations. She did this with no expectations. The kindness of people like Lisa is overwhelming. I can't tell you how much it means to me to have such huge support and kindness. I love you so much Lisa. I loved talking to you on the phone today. YOU radiate goodness and kindness.
I do know that there is only one or possibly two spots TOTAL in any of the workshops at She Scrapbooks. We added space and we have no more space to add any more spots. I am teaching the URBAN MARKET flip up book and the TC AME album/card sets album (all day workshop). These kits are MASSIVE. Make sure you watch for the list to bring to the class. It's going to be amazing!
I will be teaching this URBAN MARKET project both at She Scrapbooks June 27-28th and again at The Scrapbook Attic in Searcy Arkansas in July.
She Scrapbooks ~ La Plaza Grande ~ 918 Bichara Blvd ~Lady Lake (The Villages), Florida ~32159
~Store Hours ~Monday - Saturday 10 to 5 ~ Sunday closed
2115 East Race
Searcy, Arkansas 72143
501-278-5700 please call or visit here
501-278-5700 please call or visit here
This is my MEMORY DISPLAY WORKSHOP with THREE projects in ONE workshop. I admit, I could not help myself. I loved the memory display. This is the three projects we will be doing in the workshop.
Make a cute layout from Something Wonderful and Urban Market. This is a jam packed workshop.