Thursday, November 20, 2014

FUNERAL DETAILS- DESERT NEWS


This is my best friend.
TYLER LEWIS COLLINS

My heart is so sad that I am struggling to accept that 
he is gone. I just want to stay in these leopard pjs
and stay in bed. I know I can't do this, but right now my world is filled with losing him. I have
to go on alone. I know I have my kids but anyone who has had a beautiful loving marriage knows what I am saying. I have to accept God's will just
like he did. We had many beautiful conversations
over the past 17 months regarding his diagnosis. This past week, Ty kept telling me
that he did not want to leave me. He said so many times-
"The hardest part is leaving you and, but once I'm gone, it will be YOU
and the kids that will have it hard. YOU will miss me.  You will have to 
deal with the loss and having to live life without my help. I feel bad that I am causing this pain. I'm so sorry!"

He always was more concerned about his family and me. He worried about his mother. He knew she was now going to bury a child. I encouraged her to come to the hospital and she did. I knew this was so important and needed for both of them.

He worried about family relations. It was so important to him that our family stay close to his mother and sister and brother/families. He was

to the end wanting everyone to be united and be together. He wanted our youngest boys to have family close to help me. I have been so comforted by his family. Leann has been such a blessing to come help me write the obituaries and make food and more. I am still not thinking or speaking clearly. His mother has been arranging for so many things as I am struggling to get in a shower. It's times like this that families need to come together with love and grieve together. I have had so many people come and bless me with stories that Tyler had shared with them about how he felt about me. THIS has been the sweetest blessing and reminder to me right now.

 I am most grateful of the five days in the hospital with him. It was full of miracles and blessings. Most of you do not know him. He often told me that I was his only friend. (This was silly of course) He had friends. He just always wanted to be with me or the kids. He said family is more important than anything. He lived it and he meant it. He hated contention and fighting. He would never want to hurt anyone's feelings. When he did, he felt horrible. Tyler was always thinking of ways

to make life easier for me and the children. Yes, I've never mowed our lawn, filled my gas tank (unless he was out of town or when he got sick), etc. He wanted to take care of my needs. This is how he showed his love. I love that he told ever one of our children that they were his "best friend." I know he meant it. He told all of us this...
ILYMTAYCTSOF

I love you more than anything you can think say or feel!!!!!!!!!!
I loved watching him with the kids. He loved when the grand babies lived closer. It was sad when they moved and he rarely saw them and then he got sick. He would watch social media to see them. He loved seeing the photos. He would often ask me, "did you see the photo posted today on Instagram?"
I have had a rough time. I wish I could say otherwise. It would be a huge lie if I said otherwise. You are never prepared to lose you best friend, your eternal companion and the person who just is your everything. I don't know how this goes. I don't know how to even understand these crazy sad feelings I have right now. My heart is so tender and I have cried so much that my lips are severely chapped and hurt. When I purchased our grave plots, I felt at that moment that I wished I was with him. I had never thought this before. I just miss him and want him near me.

If you knew the real T-n-T. That is us.... you would know that
Tyler treated me like a queen. He actually used to call me princess until I said... okay, that is crazy and don't call me that. Then we would laugh. We were a team... we were crazy in love and yes, we had fights like everyone else.
Our disagreements made us stronger and more in love.
He would tell me that I'm feisty and I would say... and so are you. I told him always that when I saw him I thought he was the most handsome man in the world and I still get butterflies after all of these years. 

My sister flew in last night. I am typing this in the middle of the night. Everyone is asleep but me. I can't sleep. I'm exhausted,  but just have so much on my mind. Ty's obituary will be in the newspaper today here. You can read it below for the details.

http://www.utahvalleyfuneral.com/obituaries/Tyler-Collins/#!/Obituary

I wanted to share a book that is VERY comforting to me right now, it was a gift from the Barton family this week. It is called-
What's on the OTHER SIDE? BY BRENT L. TOP

I have been sent so many flowers.  It has been huge love from family, friends, neighbors  and business friends. I can't thank everyone enough. I am touched and lifted from your prayers.






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39 comments:

Rose said...

Oh, Teresa, I am so sorry to hear all of this.

Of course, there is nothing any of us can say that will make things any better, but nevertheless, please know that there are many, many people in the scrapbooking community who love you.

Tracey said...

My heart goes out to all of you. It is a sad and bewildering time. Just hold onto each other and get through it together. Sending you strength.

Stephanie Ackerman said...

Love you and am constantly praying for comfort and peace. TY was a great man and all I can keep thinking is that he LOVED my Chocolate Chip cookies and tried once to steal them all for himself although I know he would be the first person to share them. Please know that you are all of the kids are on my mind and in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

Oh Teresa. I am so sorry. My heart hurts for you and your family. Sending you so much love (((hugs)))
Theresa

Nicole said...

I cannot imagine the hurt that you are going through. Your relationship sounds like a beautiful love story. Thoughts of strength and prayers for you and family. I'm so sorry for your loss.

Debby Nygaard said...

Dear Teresa, My dear husband Larry went to be with God on August 4th of this year. I do not pretend to understand any of this but what I have come to realize is that this excruciating, painful journey is just that. Not a moment, an hour, a day, just a journey in the smallest pieces of time that exist. My heart has traveled with yours, as Ty and Larry were both diagnosed at almost the same time. Although we will never meet, we journey together, as so many of us do. I know that one day, all will be revealed, and I know that one day, we will meet. Again.

Anonymous said...

Thank you Teresa for sharing your heart and what you are going through. I can better pray for you knowing what you are experiencing. I continue to lift you up in prayer, eventhough I know God already knows exactly what you need. I am praying for you every time you come into my thoughts. Hugs and prayers to you and your family.
Jacquelene L
Canada

Melissa said...

My heart is with you and your family at this time Teresa. I pray you'll be comforted and will feel Heavenly Father's love at all times.
Melissa

Lynne Smith said...

Your family is what will help you heal in time. I am not saying it will be easy. There are times especially around the holidays when my grief feels too fresh and my husband has been gone 16 years. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Dee Fisher said...

I am so sorry your family is going through such a hard time. You and your family will always love and remember your sweet husband. I know everyone grieves in their own way. I lost my Son and when I think of him I always remember the funny things, the sweet things about him & it does help me. I pray you will get to a place where you no longer remember the hard time he went through at the last but remember only the sweet loving times with him.

patricia said...

Teresa, so sorry for your loss. When you are ready, read " The Next Place", a short, beautifully illustrated book by Warren Hanson. It doesn't take away the pain of loss but it is wonderfully comforting.

hotpotato said...

Hugs xx

ScrappinLita said...

I am so very sorry for the pain you and your family/friends are going through. I never knew Tyler, but I can tell from your posts, that he was a very good man. You share stories of how he SHOWED his love, not just said the words. That is indeed the telling of a person. God's blessings to all of you.

Kim Traylor said...

I am so sorry for your pain. I know there's nothing we can say right now to ease the pain but y'all are in our hearts and prayers. Ty's mom wrote a beautiful obituary. I know you have so many wonderful memories to reflect on and one day these will be the times you remember. I remember one funeral where my friend celebrated her mothers life versus mourning her passing. I was only in my 20's then and I remember that funeral like it was yesterday. I think celebrating her mom helped her through the last days and funeral. Ty is watching over y'all from heaven. God Bless y'all.

kat-in-texas said...

Will be thinking of you and praying for strength and peace as you say goodbye to the love of your life in these next days. Know that you are not alone--you are loved, T. You have a full life ahead of you and it's going to be filled with more memories and more happiness than you could have ever imagined. God has plans for you....<3

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry you are going through this Teresa. Don't forget to remember the good times and smile at little. It would make him happy. And take care of yourself.

Jean said...

It is understandable that you will miss him. He sounds like the most wonderful man! Praying for strength for you and your family.

deb musick said...

One of my favorite quotes:
Music was my refuge. I could crawl into the space between the notes and curl my back to loneliness.
Maya Angelou

We love you Teresa & we understand.

{VICKI} said...

So sorry for your loss

Colette Nederhoff said...

Very sorry for your whole family. I know your heart is broken and I hope you feel the comfort and love from all the prayers for your family. My prayer is for your strength and that you feel God's comfort during this very sad and hard time.

Nancy N. said...

Holding you in my heart as you go through this awful journey.

Lafinsol said...

Teresa, I pray that God wraps you in His arms and comforts you with the peace that only comes from Him...your faith will be the strength that gets you through this valley of darkness...just keep looking towards His light and let it fill you till it flows out and over all the people around you..
I thank you for sharing your pain, because we can listen and read and send you our thoughts and prayers...and hopefully by writing your pain down you will be able to heal.
take care.

Glenda said...

Thinking of you and your family.

Philippa said...

Hi gorgeous Teresa, I will be with you in spirit at Ty's funeral.. the lovely thing is that this is NOT the end, you will be together again one day and until then he will be right there with you in your heart and soul. I think the world of you honey and your family is just so beautiful. More love and hugs than you can know xxxx

Melissa said...

Teresa, keep blogging away and sharing your feelings. Know that us in cyberland are reading, praying and crying with you. Keep getting your emotion out, it will help you mend.

Anonymous said...

Thinking and praying of and for you and your family today at the other side of the planet. Wishing you strength and courage.

Kathy Jo said...

Thinking of you and praying for you. Peace and comfort. Love never ends.

Derrica Brown said...

Praying for your family this morning.

Anonymous said...

I wish, more than anything, that things were otherwise for you and your family. I am sending thoughts of peace and comfort to you, your children and all of Tyler's loved ones.

Nicole said...

I'm so very sorry for your loss Teresa. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

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