Friday, December 5, 2014

BE STILL....


This is best video and reminder of the TRUE GIFT.


If you come to my home. You will see this wreath. Yes, shocking that there is no glitter. I love my black front door. My dear friend Rachel made the JOY banner for me and I added it to my wreath. I was touched by her kindness. If my kids had not taken it upon themselves, there would have been zero Christmas decor this year. I can honestly say, that the decor has been beautiful and helped with the sweet spirit within our home.

My  friend Jamie sent me this beautiful reminder yesterday.



Sometimes it really is the SIMPLE everyday reminders. I was given two beautiful tender mercies yesterday. I know that Tyler was helping me and it was beyond doubt that he is helping his family still. I want to be worthy of these blessings and miracles. I want God to help me to be stronger and to endure this well. I want to live each day worthy of the blessings that I have and still get. 

Yesterday, my son thought I had left my room. He did not know that I was kneeling by my bedside praying. When I was done, I stood up and I guess I shocked him. I told him that when life if hard that kneeling on your knees in prayer is power for the soul. He said, "wow, mom you need to share that." I will tell you that this is truly the only way I am able to get out of bed every single day. At times in life where you are so sad and discouraged, it's my belief that we are only human. We have to rely on our Heavenly Father who loves us and knows us. We are literally his child. He will ease the burden. I pray to feel the spirit and to be lead to do good. 


My cute son Zach bought tickets for the Murray High School Christmas dance show. Honestly, I did not want to go. I wanted to stay home in Ty's pjs and just not face the "world." I prayed to just GO. I went and sat and cried during many of the dances. They played and danced to this song- Be Still by The Fray-



This is my sons beautiful girlfriend. She has been the biggest blessing to not only Zach, but to our family. She is full of love, values and shines with a light that is perfect for Zach. I loved going and although it was so hard, I know that sitting by my son and watching her was special. I don't want to miss any moments with my son, my family... with life. 

I am going to SMILE and just be so THANKFUL
today for the blessings of life and GOD.
I miss Tyler and his strong presence in our family and the great father that he was. I just am
going to follow God in this journey and TRUST
in his will even more.






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20 comments:

Theresa Smith said...

Teresa,

Again, thanks for sharing your journey. I can't imagine how difficult this time is for you. You keep going for your kids, grandkids, and yes, for yourself too. it is important for you to take care of YOU during this tender time.

Dottie Pennington said...

Someone posted this to her FB page today. I thought of you.

Little did we know that morning
God was going to call your name.
In life we loved you dearly,
in death we do the same.
It broke our hearts to lose you,
but you did not go alone.
For part of us went with you,
the day God called you home.
You left us peaceful memories,
your love is still our guide.
And though we cannot see you,
you are always by our side.
Our family chain is broken
and nothing seems the same.
But as God calls us one by one,
the chain will link again.

I glad to hear you are enjoying some of the joy and beauty of this Christmas Season.

Philippa said...

Oh Teresa honey, I so wish I could make these days and the days to come more easy for you. The one thing that is SO, SO, SO, SO lovely is that yours and Ty's love IS so strong!! This is why you are feeling this way and why it is feels harder every day to be without him. Your love as a couple was and still is incredible and that is SUCH a gift. Bless your heart, I love you to pieces just for being the amazing person that you are. Thank you for being you, for sharing your gorgeous family with us all and for sharing your journey with us. More love and hugs from the other side of the world than you can know. xxxx

sharpie sarah said...

I am thinking of you every day and just wishing you didn't have to endure this. Much much love.

Kathy Jo said...

Continue each day to pray - for we all know that Heavenly Father will take care of you. Try to smile when you can - as difficult as that may seem. You have so much love around you. And Ty will always be with you. A minute, an hour, one day at a time.

Tracey said...

No real words today other than I am thinking of you and your family.

Tammy said...

I am so glad that you have such wonderful children - let them take care of you for a bit! Showing them how much you love and miss their father is the best gift you can give them. And you are right - treasure each moment you have with your babies.

Suzanne O'Mullan said...

Thank you.... kneeling while praying - I am going to try.... !

Ian's Girl said...

Thank you so much for reaching out in your grief to share these things. You are blessing so many people, and you'll probably never even know how many. I wish I had better words, but please know that you and your family are still in our church prayer circles here in Arkansas.

On a completely different note, is it just me, or is Zach really starting to favor Gentry?

Glenda said...

Thinking of you

Kip said...

With time, it WILL get better. Big hugs from Florida.

Anonymous said...

Hi Teresa,
I read your post on Friday....even though I didn't respond until now, you have been in my prayers each day....This is an incredibly sad time for you....I acknowledge that when a person is "doing" for someone they love, even when they are terminally ill, it is so sad, and this time now, is even more sad because Tyler is not with you...I pray for your continued strength to keep you going...sending love

BethW said...

Thinking about you dear girl-don't really know what to say. Just wanted you to know you are in my heart and prayers every day. Peace be with you.

Rosie said...

Hi Teresa!
I can't begin to imagine what you are going through but even in your "weakness" your character shines so strong! Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers and sending a huge virtual {hug}!

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