Thursday, December 11, 2014

McKay's TALK- funeral

My sweet McKay is on her mission in Seattle Washington until Monday. Yes, just 4 more days. I had many people ask me if she had to stay or her mission or if she choose to stay after Tyler died. It was her decision to finish her mission and she truly has inspired so many with her deep love and faith for Heavenly Father. She wrote a letter to Tyler that Gentry read at the funeral for her dad. I love it so much and decided to share it with you today. 



"As I was thinking about how to express my love and feelings today I decided that the best way was by writing  Tyler a letter with all the things I want him to know and to thank him for the profound impact he's had on my life. I hope this helps show you all how wonderful of a person he is and how strong his love is for his Savior, Jesus Christ.

Dear Dad,

It's Me, Mickey Dee. Or I guess that'd be Sister Mickey-d. I really love you and miss you, but I'm also comforted to know that both of us are exactly where our Heavenly Father needs us right now. I've been thinking about you a whole lot and a bunch of memories keep coming to mind. Some are silly and I'm not sure why I keep thinking of them but they make me happy.

Do you remember when I was 12 or so and i decided that I LOVED hunting and that I wanted to go with you? You got me a BB gun and a pocketknife for Christmas and I was so excited. Unfortunately I think that after about a month I went back to not liking hunting. Opps.

Or my first time driving on actual roads after you taught me to drive a stick shift. I'm pretty sure I killed it at least 7 times trying to get moving at that first green light. You had to switch me places and drive because all the cars started going around us. 

Or I distinctly remember having a hard week down at college and you talked with me. I ended up going home and spending the weekend with you, Zachy Doo Dah and Ty Ty; That weekend meant a lot to me.

Your voice keeps playing in my head singing, as you frequently did, "You are my sunshine my only shine..."

I want you to know that I'm the person and missionary I am today because of your influence. Although I wasn't there with you during this fight, your faith, strength and love have been what have pushed me to become a stronger servant of the Lord. And now I have you by my side. Just like you taught me, we're going to give every single day our all. Together we're going to finish our mission strong. 

I want you to know that I know that this gospel is true and that gives me so much home. Because of our savior  this isn't a final goodbye, just a short time for us all to learn and grow before we're together again. One of my all time favorite scriptures, Mosiah 2 :41, has given me a lot of peace.

 It says, " And moreover, I would desire that ye should consider on the blessed and happy state of those that keep the commandments of God. For behold, they are blessed in all things, both temporal and spiritual; and if they hold out faithful to the end they are received into heaven, that thereby they may dwell with God in a state of never-ending happiness. O remember, remember that these things are true; for the Lord God hath spoken it."

 I'm so grateful for that knowledge. You're in a place of never-ending happiness and all of our family will be with you when we're called home. 

Te amo con todo mi corazón.

Love,
Mickey Dee"

Sweet McKay loved Tyler so much. She would go with him on shopping trips to Costco, get ice cream (he loves to get her ice cream- her favorite). She could always get him to buy her "treats." She would go with him to pick up Seth when they were younger. She was his little girl. I found a email a few hours ago that Tyler had send to Mckay in August. He was so proud of her. He loved her so much. It was a tender mercy. I don't think McKay would have thought to share it with me. I know Heavenly Father is so aware of YOU and me. God knows our personal needs and if we are patient he gives us all the answers and comfort. I know Tyler will indeed be with us as McKay comes home from her mission. I know this with all my heart.

It is once again in the middle of the night and I can't sleep. I keep thinking about Tyler. I got the most beautiful gift today from my friend Beth Kingston- it was a gold necklaces with the date of our marriage.  It was from Stella & Dot. 




The one she sent me is the gold label with our wedding date on it- engraved. I immediately put in on. I was so touched and it makes me so happy. I will wear this and am thankful to have this very special reminder. 

I found boxes of photos that I did not know were in the top of our closet. I am BEYOND fortunate to have these photos and memories. This weekend I will be printing all the photos that McKay has send me from her mission to have in a book. Thankfully that is easy since I have my printer at home that is amazing. I am the biggest advocate of printing your photos- taking the photos and putting them in a album. Photos have been a great source of comfort for me right now... I am so fortunate to work with Canon. I know that there is a reason that I was given this amazing opportunity. I want to remind (yes, maybe shout it...) how important preserving memories is. 


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15 comments:

Laura Turcotte said...

Touching---so touching. Thank you for sharing with us---are going to get through this...you are strong! This post was extremely touching ...made the tears flow when I read ' you are my sunshine'..that is the song my hubby sings to my little girl......beautiful!

Sara Amuso said...

Teresa, its 3 years later for me, and I still stop dead in my tracks when I see my boyfriend's handwriting or a picture or something that is just so powerfully a reminder of when he was here. I run my finger over it as though it is a connection to him....I know he's there guiding me and helping me move forward...some days are easier than others...I hope you find peace.

Jean said...

She is a special girl and had a special bond with Tyler.

ScrappinLita said...

Beautiful letter. All of you have such a way with words, and the expression of your faith is inspiring.

Mary Gillmarten said...

Teresa, what a beautiful letter from McKay and such a wonderful testimony of faith, and what a blessing she will be home soon and you will have her with you as a comfort.

Paper Dolls said...

I am beyond words in trying to imagine how incredibly difficult this time is for you. I am so sorry that you are having to walk this path but I know that God loves us more than we can understand and that He is there to support you and comfort you. I pray you will be able to sleep and be able to remember the wonderful man who has left this earthly home and miserable cancer in ways that are nurturing to your soul. I am glad you have this blog to be able to express yourself and to just talk about it. I pray blessings are finding you in the smallest and biggest ways! Enjoy those littles and keep allowing your grief to be expressed in ways that are helpful to you and your children.

gela said...

What an awesome daughter. The acorn does not fall far from the tree. God Bless

Kathy Jo said...

Thank you so much for sharing your heart and your family. You are amazingly strong. Surely the goodness of Heavenly Father is so very evident in your home. Peace and comfort to you. LOVE the necklace!

teresa collins said...

thank you. I do feel this. xoxo

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