Sunday, February 1, 2015

GERMANY & Sunday Thoughts



I am here in Germany. It's hard in that I am still not on German time. It is 8 hours ahead for me here. We are sleeping 2-3 hours from exhaustion and then we wake up at the same time. We are wide awake in the middle of the night here.
It's hard so we just Skype, talk etc. 
 


We are so tired in the daytime it is killer. I am feeling like a walking zombie and have little energy now. We are on day 5 here and we have 7 more to go. 


I am having a hard time being away from my family today. I have a hard time being away from them especially when it's this long. This is my longest trip ever. Tyler was always the one who would be home with our kids so I did not have to worry. I always worry, but there was so much comfort. It has really been hard for me to try to balance and do it on my own. I know that I never thought this would have been my reality. It is much harder than I ever thought. 

I have tried so hard to go on... try to remain happy and positive and deal with Ty's death. I don't think you can ever prepare yourself ever to deal with the emotions and loss. I have to say talking about your feelings with someone is really important. I have talked and talked. I have learned that everyone deals with death differently. I have learned there is NO manual and NO timeline on how and what to feel. I have learned this is my journey and so is my children's. I visit Ty's grave still every Sunday before or after church. Sometimes my boys want to go with me, but mostly they don't. I realize that they are having their own journey too.

Mostly, I am grateful for Heavenly Father who has blessed me to feel peace. It's vital to remain thankful for life. I am so thankful for the blessing of what Tyler taught each of us. Tyler is forever a part of our family and life. Each day there are reminders and it is often hard to articulate the feelings. This is a journey I would not want ever wanted or asked for. Many of you still email me and ask how we are doing. When Tyler died last year, it changed our family forever. I know that for me personally, it has been through Heavenly Father and prayer that I have been able to get out of bed, go back to work, and somehow remain positive, thankful and feel happy again. I know many widows who I'm now friends with that  I talk to often. I am so grateful for all of you. Mostly, I am thankful for those of you who are there for my kids too. They each are unique and deal with their dads passing differently.

Today I just want my kids to know that they are EVERYTHING to me. I am so proud of each of them. I am so excited for the gift of a grand baby in May. This is making me giddy. I am blessed with the best of friends that make life so wonderful.

Now I thought I would share photos from the show.


My new line- COLLECTORS EDITION- loving the beautiful gold foil with mint!!!!




She runs a LARGE online site in the Netherlands. She carries everything of mine!







So loved seeing her again. She is always SMILING. I love my German friends so much.




My friends from Como, Italy. I am definitely wanting to make it back there to visit and teach.













I definitely love seeing my stores from Spain here.



My friends from Switzerland. Thankful for their support of my product too.










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6 comments:

hotpotato said...

Love the new papers, but the new dies look scrummy hope they come to the UK as I NEED them. LOL.x

Anonymous said...

Way to represent! Your products look amazing and the photos help decide that , once again, I want it all.
Linda L in Tennessee

Gabi from Austria said...

I love almost all of you products! The cut'n'boss machine is a great idea. When will the machine be available in Austria or Germany???? I'm waiting...wait...wait...wait :-))

bethann d said...

today is the third anniversary of my DH's diagnosis, he was gone in 8mths. it is the worst thing ever to go thru. I am so overwhelmed at times I would like to be in the grave w him. my kids aren't supportive and have their own lives to live anyway. I hope things get better for you each and every day.

kat-in-texas said...

Wait a minute....was that a jewel between her teeth? lol (That's the Dental Hygienist in me).

Germana said...

WE WANT YOU BACK IN COMO TERESA!!!!!! You really change my way to do scrapbooking..... You are really and inspiration! Hope to see you back soon in Italy! Hugs!
Germana