I am in ATLANTA. I am boarding in a few minutes to head back home to Utah. TODAY is a day that is going to be HARD. It is Tyler's birthday. The family will be going to his grave. I went on Thursday before I came. The grave stone is finally there and it is beautiful. Sometimes it feels like this really is not reality. I know that Heavenly Father is so mindful of our family and especially the needs of our boys. I look at Ty and Zach and think of how hard it has been to see him suffer and endure the cancer and in the end return to God at such a young age. I know without a doubt that Ty is still very present and he is watching out for each of us. Words can never articulate the loss this has been and the pain each of us have been through. I have been very mindful that this is a journey and you never truly get over a loss like this. My boys are in high school now and I often think... "what would Ty want?, what would he say now?" This is a very tender day. It is also the mission farewell for Joe- his nephew (his sisters son). How great is it that it is today? Some days are just HARDER than I even can express. Thankfully, there are more good days than bad and I try to keep GOING and have FAITH in Heavenly Father's plan.
I was LIFTED here. I got so much more from being here at the EMI store event than anyone else. I needed this love and kindness. It uplifted me and I felt more strength from this BRAVE and beautiful girls here.
This was the ONLY home that Ty and I shared. We bought it together and blended a beautiful family. We had our two sons together. It was full of so many memories. I designed the kitchen and had everything custom made. I recently refinished all the hardwood floors. I picked all the chandeliers and lights and tried hard to have a home that my family loved. However, it was TIME to move on... for me and our boys. We made this decision and I know it was the right one for us. I am so grateful that no matter how I decorated, redecorated or tried to make our house a home that Ty loved and supported my design passion. I think he loved when I crafted because it was much cheaper than furniture or home remodeling. I always had free reign on the house and it was my "baby." I now will have a new home to "decorate" and make a home.
BOARDING now... Hope you have an AMAZING Sunday!!!!