Yes, it's me... I am celebrating my birthday TODAY.
I look at birthdays different. It's a DAY to celebrate!!!! I live each day with being grateful. I enjoy the simple things. It's really the small things that "really" matter.
When Ty died, it was the worst thing I have EVER endured. I had lost my mother and this was almost unbearable. I watched Ty fight like a warrior to live. He fought so hard. He did not want to die. We rallied around him and encouraged him to FIGHT. Oh how he wanted to stay with us. He endured the worst treatments so he could live. He could not feel his feet, he lost his desire to eat, he lost so MUCH "trying" to live.
So today... as I got in the shower- I prayed. I prayed with tears streaming down my face. I thought of my mother. I thought of my dad. I thought about Tyler. I thought of all of the loss, the pain and how I am a better, stronger and more appreciative person because of EACH of them. My sweet mother was unwed and was not prepared to give birth to me at the age of nineteen. My dad wanted her to abort me, but she refused. He did not want me. He was married and I was a huge mistake. My mother was so in love with him. Yes, writing my book has been good for me. I realize that I am ME today because of EVERYTHING I have been through. I am not a mistake. I KNOW THIS... it took me a toll on me as a child. I knew my father never loved or wanted me. I share things in my book that I have never shared. It's deeply personal and I knew I needed to share my life story in hopes it will help others. You can endure HARD things and still live a happy life. I never wanted to use the abuse I have faced or use it as an excuse to be less than I want to be. DEEP HERE....
I choose to SMILE... Trust me, I have days that I don't feel like smiling. I simply have learned to love ME. I love my imperfections. I love that I am emotional and that I cry easier. I care too much. I am the ultimate people pleaser. I guess you could say, I have learned to ACCEPT me.... simply as I am.
Things happen for a reason. I am a firm believer in this. I am a girl who is inspired every single day myself to be MORE and to accept the lessons given to me every day. I am often impressed to see or do something because I look for opportunities around me. On Monday, I had the opportunity to go to dinner with Bridget and Ashley Mitchell. This is the owner of BIG TOUGH GIRL. She is coming to help me KICK OFF my TC Vegas EVENT 2015 in Henderson in September. This event has SOLD OUT every single year since day one. I love that it is "more" than crafting. It is an event that is about "inspiring" those who come. It is about "friendship, good times and having a time out from obligations." It is so much more than the projects. I want those that come to feel like they are empowered and are better for coming. This year I decided the event theme would be BE FIERCE & FABULOUS.
ASHLEY, BRIDGET AND TERESA
I guess I am like a LIGHT. Do I shine? Do I SHINE bright or am I dull? Do I share and do what is right? I want to do and be more.