Wednesday, December 9, 2015

So much to be THANKFUL for....

My heart is so full for this year. It's been quite the year. I've struggled at times to go on since last Thanksgiving with trials I never wanted or expected.  To say that life has thrown me some curves is an understatement. I have at times not even known where to FOCUS. I bet you can relate to this. It can be very overwhelming. I just have really felt so much comfort from the fact that I am doing my best. I found strength and knew to turn to God and simply have gratitude. The GOOD always outweighs the bad. I have been blessed much more than I deserve. I have what matters most. That is my family and friends. I have everything because of their love. I believe in living every single day with gratitude and love. The truth is I have been pretty overwhelmed with some trials lately and I did not do my yearly THANKSGIVING/GRATITUDE post. So I decided it was important I thought better late than never.

 Tyler will be 17 years old next week.He is a on the high school cheer squad. He is way taller than me now. 

Zach is so excited to serve a mission this upcoming Summer after he graduates from high school.

This year has been hard for these two. It's a very personal & private trial that has been a really sad one to go through. I love them with all my heart. I am grateful for these two boys and am trying day by day to help them deal with their dad passing. This year has not been "all pretty" at times. Each day I pray for help and I KNOW that Tyler is near by helping and watch over them. 

I want to share a real tender mercy in my life. Last week, I was in the garage in my car. I was praying to Heavenly Father. I was begging for help to know that everything would one day be easier and that my boys were going to be okay. I asked (begged) for help. I prayed that Tyler would help me still. I need the boys to know that their dad is still with them. Then as I was sobbing, the trunk of my car opened up on it's own. I could not believe this tender mercy. It happened the night Tyler died and again the day I was  going to the funeral home. There was no way it would open on it's own. I know that God gives us each tender mercies to let us know HE is there and we are not alone. I know that Tyler is watching over his family still.It was a sweet and tender blessing that day in my car.

I am so blessed to be HER mother. McKay and I went to Seattle last weekend to visit her mission and I taught workshops too. It was the best. I'm thankful she is at BYU and loves it!!!!

I am fortunate to have my kids. I love them all so much and can't wait for Seth to get home from his mission. We are a close family and we try hard to get together a lot.

This boy being born was a true miracle and blessing in our family. MIRACLE. I know this is the word.I love Cooper so much it's indescribable. TRUST ME... being a grandparent is the BEST ever. HE stole my heart....

This beautiful woman Pat (Brian's mother) has helped me in so many ways. I am thankful for her kind and inspiring soul. I had felt so overwhelmed right before my big TC Vegas event and she was over at my house for hours helping me prepare and lighten my load. I have been very blessed to have her love and support along with Brian's dad.

It is rare to have a photo like this. At Taylor's twins blessing-

Tenneson, Zellie, Capri, Cooper, Maxson and Beckett. This photo will be cherished FOREVER.

Here are a few of my favorite photos right now- 

Cooper you are the sweetest little happy boy. 

Oh Capri... such a sweet little girly girl.

This boy is going to do GREAT things in the world. 

Capri and Beckett-
Beckett tends to steal the attention.

Taylor becoming a mother for the first time 3 months ago.

Cooper is 6 months old now. He really is the happiest baby boy.

Capri and Beckett visiting Santa for the first time last week. It was fun to do this with them. Cooper was there but he slept the entire time.

He went a few days ago and well, I'm not sure what he really thinks of Santa this year.

Where do I begin? Yesterday we have been married for SIX months. I was asked today by someone if I felt I had any regrets or felt it was in hindsight too soon. I knew it was a valid question. I have to say that I don't know WHY or HOW but Heavenly Father blessed me to find this man. I listened to my heart and I knew that Brian came into my heart and family for a reason. I have only grown to fall in love MORE deeply... each day because of the man and dad he is. This cute guy loves me and loves my children & his children. He understands my loss, my children's loss and has only supported us. 

Last weekend, I was teaching at Running with Scissors in Kent Washington.*seriously go to this store. They have ALL of my products and they have the BEST store. I was so impressed with what Melinda and Robin have created. Brian stayed home with the boys. I love that he made yummy breakfast for "dinner" for Zach and Ty. He even cleaned nonstop while I was away to lighten my load and help around the house. He is a keeper...

So although it is December and Thanksgiving did pass... I feel so much GRATITUDE. I can't possibly name and talk about everyone or everything that I am grateful for. Trust me, I could go on and on. 

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