I feel like we have to listen to our HEART. I had to step back and makes some decisions to have more balance in my life. So I am going to share one of the decisions I decided. I made a decision to postpone my TC cruise this year to early in 2017. Watch for this announcement for those of you waiting. At first, I thought maybe I should not do it anymore. However, I thought about it for MONTHS. I finally got the answer that was right. I knew I love doing it and that I just needed a little more time to do it properly.
Also, I will not be teaching this Summer with the exception of a quick Washington weekend in August. It's officially going to be a Summer dedicated to my family and product design. Zach is putting in his mission papers and we have a great family vacation placed for Island Park.
I am NOT stopping my designs by any means. Are you kidding me? I LOVE what I do. I can't wait for you to see the NEW TC Joann paper and crafting collections that will be coming out. I have felt that I needed to "take a little/big breath."
The reality is I had so many people on my waiting list to come teach and I tried to do "too much" to make up for the time I needed in the past to to take care of my family when Ty was so sick and passed away. I am not complaining because WOW do I feel so blessed and grateful. It's just time to "take some much needed- TIME" to rejuvenate. Does this make sense? I have been a little "offline" in the social media/blog world. I want to get back to these things again.
It is so hard for me to turn anything down because I LOVE what I do so much. I have been doing speaking engagements, teaching engagements, nonstop meetings and the way I have handled it is "day by day." I have disappointed myself at times with my overwhelming schedule and tasks. So I thought and prayed to know what to do. I hate disappointing anyone. I felt it mostly with myself. I guess you could say, I've felt like a chicken running around with it's head cut off. The BIG moment and clarity came to me when around Valentines I got so very sick. I mean it was a much needed "eye opener." I was forced to shut down. I was forced to reevaluate my overbooked schedule. I took a long hard look at my life. I knew that I needed to make some changes. I also, had to KNOW that I am doing what I should be doing in life in my business and personally. Wow, I admit, I was kind of afraid to get the answer. It came to me so clearly. I felt personally that I am doing EXACTLY what I am supposed to do, BUT I felt that I needed to stop being so hard on myself. Easier said then done.
I decided to allow others to help me more. Yes, I am reaching out to those that work with me and stop trying to "do it all." I am trusting in them and allowing others to help me in this journey. Just this week alone, I needed 150 kits done in the ONE week I am away. Thankfully, Gentry is amazing and is now kitting my kits. I could list over and over how amazing my team is. I also realize that as my company and brand has grown, it means hiring more people too. This is a great "problem" to have. Again, my DO IT ALL personality has finally realized that I can't do it all. I so appreciate the patience of those that work with me. I have NO idea why I am admitting or sharing this blog post. NONE... but I felt compelled to share.... yes, share "my reality."
The best part that I want to share is this. I KNOW that I am ENOUGH. I know that that we are (especially us girls) so hard on ourselves. I know that we are ALL going through hard things and wonder if our good is good enough. This is true even if your "hard" is different from my hard or someone else's hard. Thank you Ashley for reminding me of this- Big Tough GIRL!!!!! We can't compare our hard with someone else's life or their hard. We have our own journey to go through. I am so optimist and LOVE life so much it's hard for me to SLOW it down a bit. So confusion time... I know I can't keep going at the pace I have been going. I do it because I love it so much. So join me as I publicly acknowledge that it's OKAY to slow down. Focus on what matters and KEEP going. That is the secret!
So I can hear it now. I am still going to all the places I have committed. I have trips to Sweden, Prague, Munich and Frankfurt Germany and Mexico and Hawaii in the next two months. Then it will be "time out" for me. I will be focusing on my new collections debuting at Joann Fabric and Crafts and designing new products as I enjoy being home with the family.
It's St. Patricks Day today so I got "green treats" for the kids and Brian and I these shirts-
I loved what it said and I wanted us to remember our first St. Patricks Day. The shirts say "'tis MORE than just LUCK." Yes, life takes us places and the journey can sometimes NOT make sense. Then you realize how wonderful and LUCKY we each are. I know things happen for a reason and it's all in HIS hands. Again, not sure WHY I posted this blog post. It's 300 am and I'm beyond sleepy so I hope somehow my heart comes through my tiredness.